just a dream..
last night..i had the most vivid, sad, yet comforting dream. For those of you who know me, know that my nephew teigen passed away as a baby. Im not so sure he ever made it to the year of one. either way, I loved him so, and still do. well, im gonna jump straight to the point, because just thinking about this seriously makes me cry.
Long story short, when he died, for his funeral they put him in his superman halloween costum because to us, he was our little super man. He went through several surgerys and pulled through all of them. They didnt think he would..and he did. Just like me...he overcame what was not in his favor.....and i cheerish his tiny little heart for fighting as long as he did. Well a day ago i seen 2 superman decals and they was little...and it reminded me of him. My lil super man. so i bought them and they will be displayed on my car VERY SOON.
back to the dream..in my dream teigen was laying face down, like he did when he was alive...and it scared me cuz i didnt think he was breathing so i ran to him, and dove onto the floor with him. And he woke up smiling as big as ever. And I picked him up with a sigh of relief and he kissed me right on the lips. a baby kiss...but it was enough to make me cry. Then he kissed my nose and just kept kissing me over and over. And smiling as wide as the day is long. and then i woke up with my face covered in tears and my face was dried to my pillow. and all day i thought about him...and what that dream mean. To me...i do believe it was a sign from him...that he is in good hands with god. All the smiles and kisses was his way of showing me that he loves me, misses me, and most importantly of all, noticed my decals in his honor. That showed me that some things in life dont go un-noticed. I doubt you can read this...but just know. i love you little guy.
R.I.P
the tears are getting SUPER hard to fight...ill have to stop this post now. For those few that read this shit..thanx for stickin by my side....when times get rough..in this hell we call life...friends are the only true anchors...
Long story short, when he died, for his funeral they put him in his superman halloween costum because to us, he was our little super man. He went through several surgerys and pulled through all of them. They didnt think he would..and he did. Just like me...he overcame what was not in his favor.....and i cheerish his tiny little heart for fighting as long as he did. Well a day ago i seen 2 superman decals and they was little...and it reminded me of him. My lil super man. so i bought them and they will be displayed on my car VERY SOON.
back to the dream..in my dream teigen was laying face down, like he did when he was alive...and it scared me cuz i didnt think he was breathing so i ran to him, and dove onto the floor with him. And he woke up smiling as big as ever. And I picked him up with a sigh of relief and he kissed me right on the lips. a baby kiss...but it was enough to make me cry. Then he kissed my nose and just kept kissing me over and over. And smiling as wide as the day is long. and then i woke up with my face covered in tears and my face was dried to my pillow. and all day i thought about him...and what that dream mean. To me...i do believe it was a sign from him...that he is in good hands with god. All the smiles and kisses was his way of showing me that he loves me, misses me, and most importantly of all, noticed my decals in his honor. That showed me that some things in life dont go un-noticed. I doubt you can read this...but just know. i love you little guy.
R.I.P
the tears are getting SUPER hard to fight...ill have to stop this post now. For those few that read this shit..thanx for stickin by my side....when times get rough..in this hell we call life...friends are the only true anchors...