Feelings Not Erased

[darknesstolight]

It is sad to think that I am still being affected by the sadness within that James has left in me. I'm sure there is a great deal more but what I did discover yesterday was heavy on my heart; as small as it was. I know this is the beginning of what is to come but I don't know if I'll be able to handle it without killing him or myself. All I can

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[medusarising]

You over analyzed. :).

[darknesstolight]

Yes maybe I do over-analyze. It's in my nature after all. Even if I do do it, I think a lot too. If the obvious is not there, you are constantly on my mind. I think and wonder how you are, worry if you are safe, if you are happy, and what I may be able to do for you to help you become the person which can overcome his problems, when they do arise. It has been a long week for you and I know my words are not the most comforting right now. I mean you no harm and I hope I do not offend you with my ramblings. If I do, I appologize. Love makes one do and say foolish things and I am deeply, madly, truly in love. I know there is much to be learned, much to be gained and we are still both so young. Sometimes it is I who feels as if I am the child, sometimes I feel it is you but in the end, what difference does it make? We both have much to gain, much to lose, much to learn. I can only pray for you my love and hope that you do well. Each day, when I sleep I pray for your soul to be at rest and I do not kid you. I do hope and pray