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[darkness1988]

to be honest, i dont know anymore i feel like ive lost the ones closer to me ive lost jerome, ive lost everything its not the same anymore ive beeh helping people out ive talked to people when they need me, ive been happy i dont know i feel like giving up, if i get into a fight with my friends im not even going to try to fix it back thats just how i feel right now, im going to the doctors tomro to get my hormoans fixed and stop being so god damn emotional when i get a car im going to get a job and save up alot of money so i can get out of here, just leave everything behind nothings changed ocoee sucks, its just full of nigger haters,pot heads crap like that i wouldnt mind moving to orlando area but i cant live in ocoee anymore, im to the point where if i feel like dying i dont like feeling this way feeling like nobody cares and its true in some parts of it im going to stop coming online i'll get on to talk to jerome but thats it i dont have anyone online that cares.. well not anymore.. he blew me off but im not going to talk about that

i have a christmas party this weekend and im kind of excited for that im just worried about the drama when i was drunk that was the best feeling ive had in along time..

not having to think of shit with my parents, all the drama ive had to deal with,problems with jerome.. sometimes i wonder if i started smoking pot it would make my life feel better i need to learn to make choices... im 17 i mean, soon im gonna be 18 and im going to have to move out if i want to but i need to learn things instead of just doing nothing i really have to start making disicions for myself

anyways im out, i dont feel good