Everything just kinda snapped into place suddenly in my life. With friends, family, and the love of my life. Please hurry home.... I miss you. 

shit.... I over did it... I hate this

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I've been moving faster than a bulldozer thrown off a cliff. I've been making good on all the things i said i would and more at breakneck speed. I wont stop, i won't quit. I have drive, power, and focus. I can't be stopped.... Not now.... Not ever again.

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....With all my heart and soul.... i feel powerless and i wish that i had a break in my luck,,,,, and i swear on everything that if i had a break in my luck i'd hang onto it no matter the cost..... I'm depressed and i know it.... i wish i could just change everything in less than 24 hours but it know thats not even remotely possible. I've been ( Read more... )

It really pisses me off that i send you ALL of my passwords to ALL of my private data out of my good will and then you get pissed off because i "changed a PW" I never changed it, If i did i dont recall.... it's my spam email, that thing gets hacked all the time. 

just  how close to utterly failing i have come to.... but thanks to the one i love, and a brother who is more blood than most that have the "right" to say they are, has said to me today.... the old me would have turned away, laughed and then gotten mad, but i listened.... i grew, and renewed a vow that i swear on my yet-borns life, I WILL NOT ( Read more... )

I'M GOING TO BE A FUCKING FATHER!!!!! For cereal!!!! I'm in shock but at the same time happy as fucking hell now that the confusion is FINALLY OVER!!!

I promised that I'd keep us safe from any kind of harm, stress, or trauma, and so i shall! I will do what I need to do to make everything work, but i want you to understand that with you, i know not selfishness.... only selflessness. You are my one and true desire and I will forge my through the fates and bend it to OUR will, not theirs! But now we ( Read more... )

This bullshit with my mind running through all the worst things that can happen is driving me up a wall..... I hate how every time i dont hear from her for an extended period of time my mind starts going through crazy senerios and..... damnit it's killing me...... i hate feeling like this... what kills me is that i trust her without a doubt but i ( Read more... )

I think , that as far as stupidity goes i must rank somewhere near the top..... funny that she is the one who quoted "damned if i do, damned if i don't" but thats how i feel..... i do not want to become nor care to be an over bearing controlling ass..... but i cant seem to feel like i am...... but i know there are things i need to do and change in ( Read more... )