New Poem: Upon Departure

[darkmad]

I felt a little more inspired today, perhaps because I read a little more for my Healing Fiction class... it reminded me of how writing poetry can often make you feel better or worse. And I try to make myself feel better with poetry now. It makes writing it a lot harder, because it's always easier (to me, anyway) to write a self-defeating, depressing poem than an optimistic one but I tried and this is what I came up with:

Routine, tangled with thoughts of stability
long became my utility
and I survived and surrendered, content
to its constant, conventional current
you’ve quelled me in ways unfamiliar
dispersed fears like quick shots in billiard.
Moments of feeling symbolically stranded
combined with a tangent of marks unbranded
onto me, by a source gushing within
a flow, so corrosive, under my skin
a net I designed to catch aspirations
removing all sources or anticipation.
Upon your departure, thoughts entered my mind
and I fight, I fight to cast them aside
I will file a chronology titled “rewrite”
so that, upon your arrival, I just might
with my might, reunite
parts estranged with a binding so tight
and bright.

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Perhaps I am very emotional but I'd like to think that, if channeled properly, that is a quality that can be positive too.