our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance, where nobody leads at all

[darklighter]

oh my god oh my god i cant do this, cut this all off but i have to, there's nothing else to be said, it has to be done and over with otherwise i will never move on and nothing will change. and i will always yearn for something that doesnt exist anymore. bad enough i'm already emotionally stuck on someone else. but to have you both hanging around is too much, one of you has to go and it has to be the one that doesn't seem to want to be here. makes sense, right? because i can't cut the other one away, i thought about it, considered it, tried to imagine my life without him in it and wanted to die. and you, yes i feel the same way but i dont think you do. otherwise you'd come when i call. when it really matters and you know it.

i never wanted it this way. i'm sorry.