Pure Lonliness, It Stirs Up Unwanted Feelings
I don't get it...I just don't. I feel like I'm unnaturally tired, worn down, and I just don't want to do anything. This is different from my completely lazy moments--at least I know then I can just go and do something to try and get myself to become more awake. The thing is that this--it’s just something that I haven't had to deal with in a while. I feel so lonely...Its odd actually admitting it.-Sigh- I don't want to go through a phase like this again, its not fun to deal with at all.
I should try to go swimming Monday--maybe that will help lift my spirits a bit. I know I'm not really a people person when it comes to making friends, but this is just annoying. Damn it all...I can't believe I'm going to say this....I really need to find something to occupy my time with. Being single can be great and all, but there's just something that can't be achieved when you're like this. Oh well, if I'm going to be single, and quite a bit distant from people...I need to find a way to enjoy myself even then.
Yeah, that's what I need to do. I need to find something that would distract me enough to actually get my spirits up, and then I'd actually feel a bit better. It’s a temporary fix, I know that--but it'll work long enough for a good part of the winter season. Wait, now that reminds me, since Christmas is coming up so soon, I should go out around campus more and try to enjoy the festivities that are bound to be occurring around campus. That's what I really need to remember to do--its going to be something that I have to remember to do.
I need to get off of that topic...Well; one of the people from my Japanese 121 class got me hooked on a yaoi anime/manga series that is surprisingly really good. It’s quite funny, and I'm just finishing what is out already of the manga. I usually read the manga if there is one before I go and start the series to compare the two. I don't intentionally do it, but it just became a habit of mine to do so and I really don't see a reason to stop it.
Ah, there's another good thing about the week that passed previously and the one coming up. I finished my chapter three written and oral exam on Thursday and Friday, and that signifies the fact that there's only a few weeks left of the semester. There's only one chapter to go through in Japanese now =D It’s something that makes me pretty happy. I get to have Christmas break in about a month--it’s actually in a bit less than a month. Wow, how time can fly. One interesting thing about the winter semester coming up is that I'm going to have more time to work on the stories that are beginning to take form on my desktop. Right now, they're just a few pages long each--but that will change when I actually have some time to work on them during this week and during Christmas Break. I'm going to try to get at least three one shot stories out by the end of Christmas break...that will be the half goal I'll set for myself.
Well, I'm going to go and relax with a cup of tea for a while. It'll help soothe my frayed nerves and hopefully it'll help with the painful migraine that I have at the moment. I know exactly why I have this migraine, and it pisses me off that it can make things worse. I have to deal with a woman's monthly gift making things worse, stress from studying for different classes, and a whole bunch of other things adding on to the problem...God I hate my life sometimes. >>
-Hika
I should try to go swimming Monday--maybe that will help lift my spirits a bit. I know I'm not really a people person when it comes to making friends, but this is just annoying. Damn it all...I can't believe I'm going to say this....I really need to find something to occupy my time with. Being single can be great and all, but there's just something that can't be achieved when you're like this. Oh well, if I'm going to be single, and quite a bit distant from people...I need to find a way to enjoy myself even then.
Yeah, that's what I need to do. I need to find something that would distract me enough to actually get my spirits up, and then I'd actually feel a bit better. It’s a temporary fix, I know that--but it'll work long enough for a good part of the winter season. Wait, now that reminds me, since Christmas is coming up so soon, I should go out around campus more and try to enjoy the festivities that are bound to be occurring around campus. That's what I really need to remember to do--its going to be something that I have to remember to do.
I need to get off of that topic...Well; one of the people from my Japanese 121 class got me hooked on a yaoi anime/manga series that is surprisingly really good. It’s quite funny, and I'm just finishing what is out already of the manga. I usually read the manga if there is one before I go and start the series to compare the two. I don't intentionally do it, but it just became a habit of mine to do so and I really don't see a reason to stop it.
Ah, there's another good thing about the week that passed previously and the one coming up. I finished my chapter three written and oral exam on Thursday and Friday, and that signifies the fact that there's only a few weeks left of the semester. There's only one chapter to go through in Japanese now =D It’s something that makes me pretty happy. I get to have Christmas break in about a month--it’s actually in a bit less than a month. Wow, how time can fly. One interesting thing about the winter semester coming up is that I'm going to have more time to work on the stories that are beginning to take form on my desktop. Right now, they're just a few pages long each--but that will change when I actually have some time to work on them during this week and during Christmas Break. I'm going to try to get at least three one shot stories out by the end of Christmas break...that will be the half goal I'll set for myself.
Well, I'm going to go and relax with a cup of tea for a while. It'll help soothe my frayed nerves and hopefully it'll help with the painful migraine that I have at the moment. I know exactly why I have this migraine, and it pisses me off that it can make things worse. I have to deal with a woman's monthly gift making things worse, stress from studying for different classes, and a whole bunch of other things adding on to the problem...God I hate my life sometimes. >>
-Hika