A Bittersweet End

[darkgondolier]

Well, so much about posting the book thing within a day or two. Oh well, I'll get it up soon, I have plenty of time. Why? Because school's out! As usual, the end of the year comes with a certain amount of disbelief and shock, though less this year than last because I've been eagerly waiting for the end (despite having a lighter class load than last year...). But one thing this year that I haven't had to deal with in the past is the fact that most of my friends graduated tonight and will not be there next year. It's not as if I'll be at school a great deal (I'm taking entirely electives next year- French, Drama, Art, and PE, which is independent study) but I still feel like things will be a little lonelier. At graduation tonight, I kept thinking about what would have happened if I'd graduated this year as well. I think it would have felt a bit odd, like I was inserting myself into someplace I was not meant to be, but I do feel more connected to the graduated seniors as opposed to the incoming seniors. Probably because of Europe. I convinced myself that it wouldn't have worked out as well though, mostly because of being so unprepared to apply to colleges, and I don't know if I'm ready to graduate just yet. Another year at home sounds good to me, even if it does mean enduring school more than enjoying it.

Hopefully my pursuing other things outside of school will make up for lacking friends at school. And I might still see them around, or at the junior college, or dropping off siblings at school. I really don't know what next year will bring, but I'm willing to wait and see. And hope for something good.

(Also, my little sister graduated eighth grade today, even though she technically has two more days of school. Happy occasion, though a little sad for her because she's leaving friends for high school. She'll make more, though.)