Death
I found out last night that a friend of mine from High School tried to kill himself on Wednesday. I haven't been able to stop thinking about him since then. Sure, we were never really that close, and all the memories I have of him are happy ones (more-or-less). I knew he was battling depression, but he hid it so well sometimes that it was easy to forget. The fact that I haven't kept in touch with any of my high school friends (except Missy) doesn't help. I still think of everyone as they were in high school despite knowing that like me they too have changed.
But where I've become happier and less depressed (not taking last semester into account) he got worse. I don't know any details or specifics, just that he had given up on life and felt he couldn't make a difference. He is a bright person, an excellent musician and many other wonderful things, but once you start feeling worthless you become worthless. Life is one big mind game.
I'm very glad he was unsuccessful in his attempt. I don't know how I would have reacted if Missy had texted me last night saying he had killed himself. Sure, we haven't even spoken to each other since the summer after graduation, but I always pictured him there. At Kaylee's bonfires, band events, boycotting our 10th high school anniversary along with the rest of the old gang.
I feel as if a failed suicide attempt can be seen two ways.
1.) Another failure.
2.) A second chance.
Please see this as your second chance. Despite what you may think, a lot of people care about you and would find it hard to cope.
Live, Laugh, Love even through the hardest times,
~DarkForest214
But where I've become happier and less depressed (not taking last semester into account) he got worse. I don't know any details or specifics, just that he had given up on life and felt he couldn't make a difference. He is a bright person, an excellent musician and many other wonderful things, but once you start feeling worthless you become worthless. Life is one big mind game.
I'm very glad he was unsuccessful in his attempt. I don't know how I would have reacted if Missy had texted me last night saying he had killed himself. Sure, we haven't even spoken to each other since the summer after graduation, but I always pictured him there. At Kaylee's bonfires, band events, boycotting our 10th high school anniversary along with the rest of the old gang.
I feel as if a failed suicide attempt can be seen two ways.
1.) Another failure.
2.) A second chance.
Please see this as your second chance. Despite what you may think, a lot of people care about you and would find it hard to cope.
Live, Laugh, Love even through the hardest times,
~DarkForest214