I don't know who you are but I'm with you
It was so weird. How everything you've ever known, everything that's made up who you are for almost as long as you can remember, how it all can just get stripped away so quickly. I used to know who I was and what I needed to do to survive. Little pieces of it kept chipping away though. First when Helena died and then when my foster parents did and my watcher. All of it contributed to who I became, and the shell I'd built around myself. It seemed impenetrable and I'd gotten used to the numb feeling, I just assumed that I would be that way for the rest of my life.
Now it was like I'd been sitting on my foot for three hours and the pins and needles hurt but at least it meant the blood flow was back, that it was waking up. That's what I was as Ryan drove me and Helena back to school. I was pins and needles all over. Like I was slowly waking up as I said goodnight to Ryan and promised him I'd call tomorrow. It was the same as we quietly entered the school through a back door near the kitchen. My hand clutched hers as we quietly made our way up the stairs, so many memories that I was almost bowled over by the de ja vous. I think some part of me was afraid that if I let go of her I'd lose her forever.
When we got upstairs Molly wasn't in her room. I didn't know if she was hanging out with one of her other friends or not but since she apparently already knew Helena she wouldn't have a problem with her staying with us for awhile. She had to, or else I was leaving with her. I knew that at least for a little while I wouldn't be able to sleep if Helena wasn't in the same room. Once I had her settled in I disappeared for a moment to find us some dinner. I hadn't eaten before I'd left with Ryan and my stomach was starting to growl. I promised her I would be right back before I left the room and headed downstairs to the kitchen.
Once I was in the kitchen I opened up some cabinets and started to look through what was inside. Usually we all worked together to help with dinner every night but it wasn't like I couldn't handle finding something on my own. Grabbing some bread and some peanut butter and jelly I started to make some sandwiches for me and my sister. I was starved and after I was done with this I was gonna find something else to bring upstairs with me too. I was putting the peanut butter back in the cabinet when I heard someone come in. Turning around I realized it was Kennedy and I rolled my eyes and waited for it to start.
Now it was like I'd been sitting on my foot for three hours and the pins and needles hurt but at least it meant the blood flow was back, that it was waking up. That's what I was as Ryan drove me and Helena back to school. I was pins and needles all over. Like I was slowly waking up as I said goodnight to Ryan and promised him I'd call tomorrow. It was the same as we quietly entered the school through a back door near the kitchen. My hand clutched hers as we quietly made our way up the stairs, so many memories that I was almost bowled over by the de ja vous. I think some part of me was afraid that if I let go of her I'd lose her forever.
When we got upstairs Molly wasn't in her room. I didn't know if she was hanging out with one of her other friends or not but since she apparently already knew Helena she wouldn't have a problem with her staying with us for awhile. She had to, or else I was leaving with her. I knew that at least for a little while I wouldn't be able to sleep if Helena wasn't in the same room. Once I had her settled in I disappeared for a moment to find us some dinner. I hadn't eaten before I'd left with Ryan and my stomach was starting to growl. I promised her I would be right back before I left the room and headed downstairs to the kitchen.
Once I was in the kitchen I opened up some cabinets and started to look through what was inside. Usually we all worked together to help with dinner every night but it wasn't like I couldn't handle finding something on my own. Grabbing some bread and some peanut butter and jelly I started to make some sandwiches for me and my sister. I was starved and after I was done with this I was gonna find something else to bring upstairs with me too. I was putting the peanut butter back in the cabinet when I heard someone come in. Turning around I realized it was Kennedy and I rolled my eyes and waited for it to start.