Darkened Heart
I've decided this is going to be a story about a confused little boy named Dark. I would say he is an innocent but part of confusion is being lost in the chaos of it all. No longer do things like innocence shine a "do not cross" line, but instead are closed shutters, making Dark decide his own line...(his own fate)
Songs can hold so much meaning...
You've got breaking hearts all but down
and you've done this, you've done this before
You make stealing hearts look so easy
Where is the girl I adore
You've got breaking up all but down
I can't love a thief anymore
"Anberlin says it best" said Dark. "Shes stole my heart like I was giving it to her, then broke it with a sledge hammer. I can't tell myself that I don't love a thief anymore. Teach me Anberlin?" Spending his days in a dark cave, he becomes a hermit both emotionally and realistically. This is exactly how it happened the first time.
"I don't want to be a hermit, I don't want to be emotionally shelled up again," Dark mutters to himself. "I just want to live. How do you forget that you love someone?" Talking to himself, he can't stop loving the girl who has stolen his heart, Nyl. He still sees her a couple nights of week, but they just cuddle. She needs a friend cause her love is another guy, Ren. Dark only cuddles with Nyl cause hes hoping for so much more, a passionate kiss, to be held tight. Nyl teases him and only gives him cuddling. Its absolute torture to have the one you love that close and not be able to kiss them to the fullest emotion.
So what does Dark get to hear from Nyl? Things like... "I have to deal with loving Ren every day of my life even though he has a new girlfriend and Ren's family loves her." Dark can't stand loving her like this. It hurts to much. She wants to be a friend, he wants so much more. Nyl was the sledge hammer that broke Dark's earlier emotional shell and now she just might be the person to help fix that emotional shell right back up.
"I don't want to be in an emotional shell ever again. I HATE hiding my emotions now that I feel them"
Dark has been trying to go on dates with other girls to help himself get over Nyl. That hasn't been working as smoothly as one would like it to be. Other girls have either been not responding to him at all, (even though she says she misses dark and loves it when he texts. She still doesn't respond very much at all.) I think Dark's "favorite" story about a girl is the one who wanted to go out on a date with him for months and was just really busy. Suddenly doesn't want to go out on a date and just doesn't like him like that anymore. Sometimes Dark feels like every girl is just playing with him. Dark might find that out at an upcoming party.
"I hate girls...but I don't want to be gay. Can you be nonsexual and not be lonely?"
{P.S. If you are reading this, please, comment. I could use new direction for my story. Appreciated. :)
Songs can hold so much meaning...
You've got breaking hearts all but down
and you've done this, you've done this before
You make stealing hearts look so easy
Where is the girl I adore
You've got breaking up all but down
I can't love a thief anymore
"Anberlin says it best" said Dark. "Shes stole my heart like I was giving it to her, then broke it with a sledge hammer. I can't tell myself that I don't love a thief anymore. Teach me Anberlin?" Spending his days in a dark cave, he becomes a hermit both emotionally and realistically. This is exactly how it happened the first time.
"I don't want to be a hermit, I don't want to be emotionally shelled up again," Dark mutters to himself. "I just want to live. How do you forget that you love someone?" Talking to himself, he can't stop loving the girl who has stolen his heart, Nyl. He still sees her a couple nights of week, but they just cuddle. She needs a friend cause her love is another guy, Ren. Dark only cuddles with Nyl cause hes hoping for so much more, a passionate kiss, to be held tight. Nyl teases him and only gives him cuddling. Its absolute torture to have the one you love that close and not be able to kiss them to the fullest emotion.
So what does Dark get to hear from Nyl? Things like... "I have to deal with loving Ren every day of my life even though he has a new girlfriend and Ren's family loves her." Dark can't stand loving her like this. It hurts to much. She wants to be a friend, he wants so much more. Nyl was the sledge hammer that broke Dark's earlier emotional shell and now she just might be the person to help fix that emotional shell right back up.
"I don't want to be in an emotional shell ever again. I HATE hiding my emotions now that I feel them"
Dark has been trying to go on dates with other girls to help himself get over Nyl. That hasn't been working as smoothly as one would like it to be. Other girls have either been not responding to him at all, (even though she says she misses dark and loves it when he texts. She still doesn't respond very much at all.) I think Dark's "favorite" story about a girl is the one who wanted to go out on a date with him for months and was just really busy. Suddenly doesn't want to go out on a date and just doesn't like him like that anymore. Sometimes Dark feels like every girl is just playing with him. Dark might find that out at an upcoming party.
"I hate girls...but I don't want to be gay. Can you be nonsexual and not be lonely?"
{P.S. If you are reading this, please, comment. I could use new direction for my story. Appreciated. :)