Nyl Chronicles: Prequel
Some part of me wants to believe that everything happens for a reason. Doesn't everyone get that feeling? I believe so. If we all fit in to some sort of plan does our personalities cause us to travel down that path...do we not have free choice? Hmm... I WANT to believe that we all have our own choices to make, and make them we shall. So now, I get to sit here and analyze past choices, or as I like to call them mistakes.
So lets start with Nicole...(wow that sounds like I'm calling her a mistake, which i'm totally not. Shes a completely amazing girl.. and not a whore like she seems to think she is) Like I said she did show me love... it felt amazing. It was too strong of an emotion for me to handle at the time. I think thats what led to me doing some weird things and not showing my emotions/in dependency and therefore she let me go. Which she probably thought it was for my own good...for all I know it was.
However, I probably did the wrong thing for myself... and shut myself inside an emotional shell. Inside I missed the memory of Nicole but knew I had to move on. Unfortunately I couldn't connect with anyone and was having purely physical relationships. Fun for a second but it sure does leave you feeling empty at the end of the day. An empty shell, wow what a nice place to spend every day for just about 2 years. I didn't feel any emotion. Even when I met Nyl and started hanging out with her more...
So lets start with Nicole...(wow that sounds like I'm calling her a mistake, which i'm totally not. Shes a completely amazing girl.. and not a whore like she seems to think she is) Like I said she did show me love... it felt amazing. It was too strong of an emotion for me to handle at the time. I think thats what led to me doing some weird things and not showing my emotions/in dependency and therefore she let me go. Which she probably thought it was for my own good...for all I know it was.
However, I probably did the wrong thing for myself... and shut myself inside an emotional shell. Inside I missed the memory of Nicole but knew I had to move on. Unfortunately I couldn't connect with anyone and was having purely physical relationships. Fun for a second but it sure does leave you feeling empty at the end of the day. An empty shell, wow what a nice place to spend every day for just about 2 years. I didn't feel any emotion. Even when I met Nyl and started hanging out with her more...