Its been sometime...
I've probably been thinking about posting for weeks now. It seems like I have to think for weeks to even doing anything and its starting to tire me. I'm finally going to start posting my story, or my drama. Whichever you would like to call it.
Reading over previous entries and such made me realize that last time I used this i was also depressed. I said things that i wanted to do but ended up not doing. One of my last entries says that I was gonna sober up soon. Wrong... Its been almost 2 years and i can pretty much say i haven't sobered up for more then a day or 2. Its depressing in a failure to live up to your own standards kind of way.
So WHY am I posting now? Well A) Its been just about 2 years since my last relationship, B) I feel like i need to talk about my current relationships, (at least record, i doubt anyone will read these), and C) So I don't forget the things i want to tell myself. That i want to remember. More importantly, I believe anyone who might want to start a relationship with me might want to know part of my past. Since I smoke so much, I'm forgetful. This is my way to remember.
I want to start a story. My drama story. If you want to read along, then please, wait for the updates.
As for now... I have to go to work. Lovely. :)
Reading over previous entries and such made me realize that last time I used this i was also depressed. I said things that i wanted to do but ended up not doing. One of my last entries says that I was gonna sober up soon. Wrong... Its been almost 2 years and i can pretty much say i haven't sobered up for more then a day or 2. Its depressing in a failure to live up to your own standards kind of way.
So WHY am I posting now? Well A) Its been just about 2 years since my last relationship, B) I feel like i need to talk about my current relationships, (at least record, i doubt anyone will read these), and C) So I don't forget the things i want to tell myself. That i want to remember. More importantly, I believe anyone who might want to start a relationship with me might want to know part of my past. Since I smoke so much, I'm forgetful. This is my way to remember.
I want to start a story. My drama story. If you want to read along, then please, wait for the updates.
As for now... I have to go to work. Lovely. :)