oh, it was so much easier before that night.
i havent updated in awhile.
so i will undoubtedly leave out a lot of things i wanted to put in here.
i'll just put in my latest feelings on everything.
i hate my situation with guys.
and not even that i dont have a boyfriend.
the vast majority of the time, that doesnt bother me at all.
its just that- right now- i dont even like a boy.
like- sure there are a few guys i'd hook up with or whatever,
and there is only one impossible boy that i could see as boyfriend material.
but again, he's impossible.
not that he's not into me- but that we couldnt do that, for certain reasons.
so whats the point? right? secrecy never works.
i just want that feeling you get when you really like a boy.
that's what i miss the most i guess..
my mom and i have been butting heads lately.
i went to deannas last night hysterically crying.
her mom cheered me up though, talked to me, everything.
went on a midnight run and had a blast. <3
so that turned out good.
however, this situation with my mom needs to ease very soon.
or else i can kiss fun on the cruise good-bye. ):
i hung out with dee justin and chris on thursday.
summer has officially begun. <33
i always have fun with all of them, its like last summer.
i feel bad without mike though.
maybe the five of us can hang out soon.
i dont know though- we've all changed.
its not the same as last summer..
there are a few things that just stick out in the way.
but i still had a lot of fun with them.
right now im in a not so good mood.
i had fun at kait + colleen's.
but there are things on my mind.
some pretaining to guys, others to my mom, and still others to my friends.
im so up in the air right now.
i need a change in scenery quick.
please help.
:/
afternote:
i want to hang out with tom + mike.
i miss those guys so much.
♥, kait
so i will undoubtedly leave out a lot of things i wanted to put in here.
i'll just put in my latest feelings on everything.
i hate my situation with guys.
and not even that i dont have a boyfriend.
the vast majority of the time, that doesnt bother me at all.
its just that- right now- i dont even like a boy.
like- sure there are a few guys i'd hook up with or whatever,
and there is only one impossible boy that i could see as boyfriend material.
but again, he's impossible.
not that he's not into me- but that we couldnt do that, for certain reasons.
so whats the point? right? secrecy never works.
i just want that feeling you get when you really like a boy.
that's what i miss the most i guess..
my mom and i have been butting heads lately.
i went to deannas last night hysterically crying.
her mom cheered me up though, talked to me, everything.
went on a midnight run and had a blast. <3
so that turned out good.
however, this situation with my mom needs to ease very soon.
or else i can kiss fun on the cruise good-bye. ):
i hung out with dee justin and chris on thursday.
summer has officially begun. <33
i always have fun with all of them, its like last summer.
i feel bad without mike though.
maybe the five of us can hang out soon.
i dont know though- we've all changed.
its not the same as last summer..
there are a few things that just stick out in the way.
but i still had a lot of fun with them.
right now im in a not so good mood.
i had fun at kait + colleen's.
but there are things on my mind.
some pretaining to guys, others to my mom, and still others to my friends.
im so up in the air right now.
i need a change in scenery quick.
please help.
:/
afternote:
i want to hang out with tom + mike.
i miss those guys so much.
♥, kait