wishing i could rip my heart out

[darkelfdelila]

how the hell did i start caring agian. i dont want to care. all it does is hinder me from living my life. im just getting back on track, and all its gonna do is make me want to give up agian. and i cant let that happen. but when my heart wants to give up there is nothing my brain can do to make it keep going. i fucking hate feeling alone. well not

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love hurts

[karebear99]

Every relationship you ever have (platonic or not platonic) will somehow at some point hurt you! So if you are scared of being hurt then you should break off every relationship with everyone you love. Because at some point in your life everyone you love will: offend you, disappoint you, hurt your feelings, piss you off, make you hate them(however short lived), "stab you in the back", talk about you badly to someone, double-cross you with a friend, cheat on you, etc... Now does it sound feasible to break off all the relationships you already have so no one can hurt you? No! Does it sound feasible to never make any new friends so they can't hurt you? No! YOU need to learn to trust your instincts, if you feel that a certain person will hurt you badly don't go there. However, if you are just afraid they might, at some point in the far distant future, hurt you, don't worry about it and cross that bridge when you get there. You have to just let fate worry about it sometimes. I think, regaurdless of what you believe, ass face made you stronger than you know. For now you know not to be dependent on someone else to make you happy. You are making yourself happy and in doing so you are starting to be attracted to other guys again. Do me a favor and make me a promise!?? When the time comes and someone you like asks you out close your eyes and think of Dylan and think of "the baby" take a deep breath and say yes! Then trully go give it a shot! You see if I hadn't let Chris in then I wouldn't have Dylan, Chris broke my heart slowly over time and now its too late to take it backj! But I'm not sorry I let him in just that I'm still here. Even though trishia and adam fight she still loves him and i can gaurantee you that she wouldn't change all the heartaches if it meant giving back her baby! So by not going out with someone because your afraid you could be passing on your one shot for true happiness. I think I may have already had mine a long time ago and I walked out on it. I let my pride stand in the way of my heart. I should have sucked it up and tried a little longer because so far he has been the only one who actually felt right. The only one who loved me for who I was not who they wanted me to be. I have never regreted our relationship, only leaving him. In short I guess I am saying that if you hold out to long or give up too soon then what your life was supposed to be will pass you by! I honestly believe that I should have stayed with Josh then we would have gotten married, had children, and lived happily together for years to come. Maybe not forever but then again he was my true love. I have yet to find anyone I have ever loved that much! Although I have searched high and low.

Re: love hurts

[darkelfdelila]

im not saying im scared of being hurt by my friends just guys that i have dated and will maybe date in the future. but you are right i cant let my fear get in the way of me trying to be happy and move on. i wont. i may soon have a bf but its one of my bestfriends ex's, i dont know if she will be upset or not. but i will talk to her about it. if she says she doesnt care and he does ask me out then i will say yes. he's really sweet and funny too. and i hope she doesnt care, it will be my first chance in a long time that i will have the opportunity to try agian.
if i was in trishias place i wouldnt go back and change any of it either. thats her baby and she loves it more than life itself. it doesnt matter how rough the road to get there was, she has it now and she doesnt want to change it. if i would have gotten in that situation with ass face i wouldnt have wanted to change it either. and thank you for writting me this message it ment a lot, it almost made me cry. i dont want my life to pass me by, thats the part that stuck in my head most. i dont want to pass a chance to be happy agian. thank you agian and i love you, Babs

Re: love hurts

[karebear99]

glad i could help! I wasn't saying you were scared of being hurt by your friends either, I was saying that if you were willing to hold back from a boyfriend because you might get hurt then you might as well not love anyone or let anyone love you because at some point *everyone* you know will hurt you in some way. That is the way life works unfortunately. No matter who you hold back from when you look at it that way it is all pointless in the end right? so jump in with both feet.

Re: love hurts

[woodoelfopansy]

you're so smart. I love you with all my heart. I am a poet, and I know it.

Mommy Maggot.