wishing i could rip my heart out
how the hell did i start caring agian. i dont want to care. all it does is hinder me from living my life. im just getting back on track, and all its gonna do is make me want to give up agian. and i cant let that happen. but when my heart wants to give up there is nothing my brain can do to make it keep going. i fucking hate feeling alone. well not really alone, just lonely. and i hate that feeling more that the alone feeling.
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would you notice if i were to dissapear
would you morn the loss or go on without me near
i want you to see how much i really mean
but i have to go on and wipe my brain clean
can you even see me, im right here beside you
i want you to want me but what else can i do
i cant hold your hand or fall asleep in your arms
will you help me feel safe from lifes harms
why does it seem like you have no cares
is it bad that i want you to cry
do you like to break my heart like noone else dares
could it be that bad that i want us both to die
why do you seem to keep my attention
for some reason your the only one to catch my eye
i want to see you but not my own reflection
it seems like your the one that will make me want to try
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that poem was about two different people. if you didnt get that. one you all probably know who it is. but the other i havent told anyone his name or where i met him or how i met him. some might be able to guess. if not then you wont know unless i get a chance with him. but the bad thing is if i do get a chance with him i wont let myself,ill just tell him no. but i want to try its just that my brain is to scared. terrified acctually. i have never, in my intire life, been anymore scared of anything than i am about getting hurt agian.
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would you notice if i were to dissapear
would you morn the loss or go on without me near
i want you to see how much i really mean
but i have to go on and wipe my brain clean
can you even see me, im right here beside you
i want you to want me but what else can i do
i cant hold your hand or fall asleep in your arms
will you help me feel safe from lifes harms
why does it seem like you have no cares
is it bad that i want you to cry
do you like to break my heart like noone else dares
could it be that bad that i want us both to die
why do you seem to keep my attention
for some reason your the only one to catch my eye
i want to see you but not my own reflection
it seems like your the one that will make me want to try
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that poem was about two different people. if you didnt get that. one you all probably know who it is. but the other i havent told anyone his name or where i met him or how i met him. some might be able to guess. if not then you wont know unless i get a chance with him. but the bad thing is if i do get a chance with him i wont let myself,ill just tell him no. but i want to try its just that my brain is to scared. terrified acctually. i have never, in my intire life, been anymore scared of anything than i am about getting hurt agian.