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darkelfdelila

havent updated in a while

Feb 06, 2005 08:43

well im updating, isnt it great. why is it when im acctually having fun,people automaticly think im high. do they think im incapable of being able to laugh if im not high. well your wrong. cause i can. and i did. has anyone ever made a list of things they want to get accompished before they turn a certain age. is it a good idea or will it just make ( Read more... )

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from karen karebear99 February 8 2005, 17:00:56 UTC

brit, don't go there with him again. I know jesse pretty well and i don't know what hes told you but i do know that he wants to be with her.
he has had me take him there when he lived with me and he told me he wants to be with her, don't tell him i told you this, and you know what else, i think you are too good for him. you seem like a nice, sweet person that he will walk all over given the chance. besides all he really looks for in a girlfriend right now is someone who will put out. also your right he does just keep getting farther behind in life because there's noone to make him do the things he needs to be doing. and those who try to make him do it can't. i love my brother but he told me the other day that we should all just sit back and let him fuck up his life. he doesn't care who his actions affect he doesn't care who he hurts. he just wants to do what he wants to do. talk at ya later. bye

thanks darkelfdelila February 9 2005, 03:25:49 UTC

im glad for the info. yeah you must be right. If he wants to be with her thats his choice. i dont really want to be with someone who doesnt care whether or not he succeeds. i dont need that right now or ever. i just got past that in my own life and i dont wanna fall behind agian. its his choice to ruin his life. im not even going to try to care whether he tries to change it. he's the one who will regret it in the end. i have already tried to help him see what could be the best for him but he's to blind to see it. he wont admit that he could be so much better than he is now, if he would just try. i know he could do it if he would just realize and try but he wont. i cant let it get to me down now im doing so much better. im not going to fail because im worried about him. he's not worth it. if he wants to be with someone like her all the more power to him. bye for now hopw to hear from you agian.

Re: thanks your welcome karebear99 February 9 2005, 16:34:58 UTC

I have also tried to make him see what he is doing and he didn't like hearing what i had to say. Actually i think I pissed him off pretty bad, but you know he'll get over it. I've been pissing him off in one way or another his whole life no point in stopping now, right? I think that he might be afraid to try because he might be afraid he'll fail and end up like dad but by not trying at all he's ending up more and more like dad every day. You know what the worst part of the whole thing is everyone knows he could do better because, take school for instance' when he actually tries he gets straight A's. But when you try to tell him this or to make him see he's acting just like our father then he gets pissed off and just shuts down emotionally. I just hope he wakes up and realizes what he's doing to his life before its too late. ttyl karebear.

I know darkelfdelila February 9 2005, 20:13:22 UTC

your right, thats exactly why he wont try, he thinks he will fail. i know that because i was just like that. im afraid to fail its my worst fear, but i have realized that its better to try and fail then to not try at all. if you dont try you ever know if you could have succeeded. even after all he has done to me i still care about him. that will never change. i have smartened up and realized he isnt what i need. not the way he is. but i care about him it hurts me to see him fail and not even try. but there is nothing i can do. if i knew he would listen to me i would talk to him about it but i know he wont listen to me, if he wont even listen to his sisters i know he wont listen to me. and i think its bull shit that your dad doesnt even care if he turns out like him. its because your dad doesnt want to be the only one with a fucked up life, i know its not my place to say that because he isnt my father but its true. and im sorry if i offended you. i just wish there was someone he would listen to about this, but apparently there isnt. he ( ... )