I'm off the stuff. Today I wasn't on ritalin because I ran out and my dad didn't get me anymore. Well it really makes a difference because today I had problems paying attention and I almost fell asleep. It of course was compounded by the fact that I didn't get enough sleep at all so I was even less attentive but I had a harder time staving off sleep today because I was even less attentive because of the lack of ritalin. Then yesterday night I was up for like two hours listening to my dad yelling about how he wants to have a heart attack and die so he won't have to deal with us(his family) anymore. School was pretty sucky too. I got the lowest grade that I ave yet gotten on a test. I got 36 out of 60 on an English test. That is a 60%, the lowest possible D. I also got a low B on a French quiz. That was my highest quiz grade of the year in French and I thought the quiz was easy. It was the easiest french quiz this year but still that is one low grade if that is the case. Well if this is the precedent for the rest of the yesr it is going to be a rough year.
"I fall into a pit of darkness, wondering why
I should get up"
Life proved to be utterly worthless to you, and you
have yet to find a real reason to why we are
all here. There is no bright future for neither
you or the rest of mankind according to you.
Sugarcoating is not your thing and you prefer
the unmasked truth, even if it is horrible.
That is what you are expecting anyway, being
the true cynical that you are. When you meet
people you try to find flaws and reasons to
stay away from them, to justify your
lonlieness. But it's not like you believe in
friendships anyway, since human relations are
always temporary.
What is Your Phrase? [for darker people] brought to you by
Quizilla You Are Somewhat Machiavellian
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!
How Machiavellian Are You?