too many choices.
i wish it could be simple. simplicity in the...simplest of forms! before i was happy...and now theyre both hurt, i guess mr farro's a tad more phsyicly hurt, but what does it matter! ive lost them, and it was my own stupid fault! i didnt see the OTHER josh there. i just, overlooked it i guess. what the heck was i thinking!
"i loved you hayley." said josh farro as he walked away from me. SUCH a cliche.
"its ok, i'll always be here. always. my love is'nt inconstant like the moon, or like his love for you." omigod he's quoting shakespeare. now that is...odd.
"josh Franceschi, you are all i have now. i love you so-" of course he cuts me off.
"why couldnt i have been ALL you had before. why did i have to be your bit on the side?! you know what? i dont wanna be your anything. 'coz ever since i got with you ive just been, resentful, mean, selfish. and thats not who i wanna be."he shook his head and bit his lip. "its off. over! i cannot be a secret anymore, or be an 'exposure'. i just wanna be me again. i'll support the tour but then im done." and he also walked away from me.
"josh, please call me, i love you...your all i wanted. i just got carried away on impulse. it was you first, and you forever. please dont do this. im completly in control of my-" there was a knock at the hotel door. "wait ok im sorry i love you, theres someone at the door. please just think about calling me?" and i hung up.
i walked to the door, shaken and hungry for an answer, i got one in the next 10 minuits.
"STOP CALLING ME!"yelled josh farro from the doorway.
"please josh! i cant live without you, i cant believe i did something so stupid! im the biggest ass ever and i cant live another second without the reasurrance of your love! please." i said grabbing hold of him as he turned to walk away.
"NO! you need to stop hayley! you ruined it! it was stupid for us to be together anyway. were friends and thats it! i cant ever feel the same without hating myself and resenting you in the process. just lets just be friends okay?" omigod its really over.
"i cant let you leave me, i love you josh." i whispered.
"well i have to, and you need to give up this act coz right now, to be honest, i dont care if your dead." i hung onto the last sentence.
"bye josh."i said, and shut the door.
whats now, whats left in my life when ive lost the only reason worth living for.
death. i suppose.
i grabbed a belt and made a loop. it was a really crappy noose, but if i wasnt disturbed it will be good enough.
"je morte par amour." i whispered. i died for love...on friday the 13th. to write love your arms day. ironic. par amour? my stupid band name just screamed at me along with the memory of josh.
i picked up a hunting knife, and cut the word love deep into my left arm. feeling weak i kissed it. i lifted my head through the loop, and kicked the stool away. darkness.
"i loved you hayley." said josh farro as he walked away from me. SUCH a cliche.
"its ok, i'll always be here. always. my love is'nt inconstant like the moon, or like his love for you." omigod he's quoting shakespeare. now that is...odd.
"josh Franceschi, you are all i have now. i love you so-" of course he cuts me off.
"why couldnt i have been ALL you had before. why did i have to be your bit on the side?! you know what? i dont wanna be your anything. 'coz ever since i got with you ive just been, resentful, mean, selfish. and thats not who i wanna be."he shook his head and bit his lip. "its off. over! i cannot be a secret anymore, or be an 'exposure'. i just wanna be me again. i'll support the tour but then im done." and he also walked away from me.
"josh, please call me, i love you...your all i wanted. i just got carried away on impulse. it was you first, and you forever. please dont do this. im completly in control of my-" there was a knock at the hotel door. "wait ok im sorry i love you, theres someone at the door. please just think about calling me?" and i hung up.
i walked to the door, shaken and hungry for an answer, i got one in the next 10 minuits.
"STOP CALLING ME!"yelled josh farro from the doorway.
"please josh! i cant live without you, i cant believe i did something so stupid! im the biggest ass ever and i cant live another second without the reasurrance of your love! please." i said grabbing hold of him as he turned to walk away.
"NO! you need to stop hayley! you ruined it! it was stupid for us to be together anyway. were friends and thats it! i cant ever feel the same without hating myself and resenting you in the process. just lets just be friends okay?" omigod its really over.
"i cant let you leave me, i love you josh." i whispered.
"well i have to, and you need to give up this act coz right now, to be honest, i dont care if your dead." i hung onto the last sentence.
"bye josh."i said, and shut the door.
whats now, whats left in my life when ive lost the only reason worth living for.
death. i suppose.
i grabbed a belt and made a loop. it was a really crappy noose, but if i wasnt disturbed it will be good enough.
"je morte par amour." i whispered. i died for love...on friday the 13th. to write love your arms day. ironic. par amour? my stupid band name just screamed at me along with the memory of josh.
i picked up a hunting knife, and cut the word love deep into my left arm. feeling weak i kissed it. i lifted my head through the loop, and kicked the stool away. darkness.