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IT'S HAPPENING!!! After years and months of planning and things getting put off then things downright being delayed, the boy and I found an apartment and are moving in together next month.
I promised myself that I would move out this year and even though it would have been so much easier to wait a few more months, I felt that it was important not to let any of this year's mishaps delay my life. And despite the weekend being totally stressful, as all apartment hunts are, I'm glad it's finally happening and I hope this spells the start of my next chapters with the boy.
I also still have a lot of anxiety over our living situation - the apartment is great but it's on the ground floor so naturally I'm afraid of potential critter issues and noise. I also hope that the landlord is a decent human who's kind and open to us making a life here rather than trying to turn us over every year to make a quick buck out of his property. But for now, rather than worrying, I want a moment to be happy that things might finally be back on track. It's a good feeling - that hopefulness. And as I've said earlier this year, in special instances, feeling hopeful is so much more magical than feeling happy.
I promised myself that I would move out this year and even though it would have been so much easier to wait a few more months, I felt that it was important not to let any of this year's mishaps delay my life. And despite the weekend being totally stressful, as all apartment hunts are, I'm glad it's finally happening and I hope this spells the start of my next chapters with the boy.
I also still have a lot of anxiety over our living situation - the apartment is great but it's on the ground floor so naturally I'm afraid of potential critter issues and noise. I also hope that the landlord is a decent human who's kind and open to us making a life here rather than trying to turn us over every year to make a quick buck out of his property. But for now, rather than worrying, I want a moment to be happy that things might finally be back on track. It's a good feeling - that hopefulness. And as I've said earlier this year, in special instances, feeling hopeful is so much more magical than feeling happy.