and i'd give it all away.....
so it's 7:30 a.m. and i'm gettin ready to go for my "first" day of work as a secretary :-D all i'm really doin is just gettin acquainted with everything and the computer programs and stuff. this should be fun lol
so lately there's been a lot of drama - kyle just doesnt get the fricken point. and when i ask him to leave and he doesnt all it does is piss me off even more, and by lots more. the bruising on the hadn is actually gettin worse i think - oh and yesterday at work all of a sudden my ring finger on my right hand (the slightly bruised and swollen right hand - haha) just goes numb, and i could feel it tingling right up my arm to my back. it was fun stuff.
but last nite - whit was already in bed and i was takin out my contacts yada yada - shed already been up here sleeping for prolly like half hour/ 45 minutes and i hear her talkin so i kinda eaves drop and ask her who it is. she says Ben so i crawl into bed with her cuz he's been a pain in the ass lately. wants to hang out but she'd hafta drive up there cuz he doesnt get along with any of our friends and if hes here and other ppl stop by it just gets super uncomfortable. anyways...hes all pissed and then tried layin a guilt trip on her because we had friends over watchin a movie. for some reason he thinks that drivin up to mqt just to see him sounds more appealing then lougnin around our own house with friends that stop by to watch a movie. jerk. so she gets pissed and he hangs up on her. so i went back to brush my teeth - dum dum - and she starts talkin again - this time just starts flippin out sayin how she has a lot going on between work and school and the stress and pain from her ankle and she just doesnt have time to listen to his bullshit - at 1:30 in the mornin when he wants to talk about "them" so he can figure stuff out. there's nothin to figure out tho - shes not ever gettin back with him - sure he finally changed into someone she would normally date - but its Ben and he already fucked that up.
so then i crawl back into bed with her when i hear her throw her phone down and went in there - lets just say she had to vent a lil bit. so we kinda swapped stories again - and we talked a lil about this whole ian thing.
and i realized how absolutely much i love her :-D - if i didnt have her or whats goin on right now i dont know where i'd be. and i know its only goin to get better. cuz we can throw the parties and have fun but then we can also call ppl up to watch a new movie that cacme out or sumthin lol. its great
and this whole single thing - i think im kinda gettin the hang of it. now it's weird to imagin havin someone around all the time and havin not havin to worry bout what someone else is doin is really quite nice. lol - we were talkin the other day bout how my life has done like a complete 180. at this time last year i was an emotional wreck, living with my parent, barely working, playing basketball, and pretty much hating everything. now i've got 4 jobs (haha), a new house, the bestest friend anyone could ever ask for, and time to as i please - which makes me happy
sorry this entry is pretty much "me,me,me" but i had to kinda let that stuff out. oh and i'm losing weight :-D - and im gettin a new hair-dud today. tattoo this weekend too - okay im done lol
and off to work we go! oh and im givin whitty her first full body massage today - shes gonna love me forever - lol
'alwayz
so lately there's been a lot of drama - kyle just doesnt get the fricken point. and when i ask him to leave and he doesnt all it does is piss me off even more, and by lots more. the bruising on the hadn is actually gettin worse i think - oh and yesterday at work all of a sudden my ring finger on my right hand (the slightly bruised and swollen right hand - haha) just goes numb, and i could feel it tingling right up my arm to my back. it was fun stuff.
but last nite - whit was already in bed and i was takin out my contacts yada yada - shed already been up here sleeping for prolly like half hour/ 45 minutes and i hear her talkin so i kinda eaves drop and ask her who it is. she says Ben so i crawl into bed with her cuz he's been a pain in the ass lately. wants to hang out but she'd hafta drive up there cuz he doesnt get along with any of our friends and if hes here and other ppl stop by it just gets super uncomfortable. anyways...hes all pissed and then tried layin a guilt trip on her because we had friends over watchin a movie. for some reason he thinks that drivin up to mqt just to see him sounds more appealing then lougnin around our own house with friends that stop by to watch a movie. jerk. so she gets pissed and he hangs up on her. so i went back to brush my teeth - dum dum - and she starts talkin again - this time just starts flippin out sayin how she has a lot going on between work and school and the stress and pain from her ankle and she just doesnt have time to listen to his bullshit - at 1:30 in the mornin when he wants to talk about "them" so he can figure stuff out. there's nothin to figure out tho - shes not ever gettin back with him - sure he finally changed into someone she would normally date - but its Ben and he already fucked that up.
so then i crawl back into bed with her when i hear her throw her phone down and went in there - lets just say she had to vent a lil bit. so we kinda swapped stories again - and we talked a lil about this whole ian thing.
and i realized how absolutely much i love her :-D - if i didnt have her or whats goin on right now i dont know where i'd be. and i know its only goin to get better. cuz we can throw the parties and have fun but then we can also call ppl up to watch a new movie that cacme out or sumthin lol. its great
and this whole single thing - i think im kinda gettin the hang of it. now it's weird to imagin havin someone around all the time and havin not havin to worry bout what someone else is doin is really quite nice. lol - we were talkin the other day bout how my life has done like a complete 180. at this time last year i was an emotional wreck, living with my parent, barely working, playing basketball, and pretty much hating everything. now i've got 4 jobs (haha), a new house, the bestest friend anyone could ever ask for, and time to as i please - which makes me happy
sorry this entry is pretty much "me,me,me" but i had to kinda let that stuff out. oh and i'm losing weight :-D - and im gettin a new hair-dud today. tattoo this weekend too - okay im done lol
and off to work we go! oh and im givin whitty her first full body massage today - shes gonna love me forever - lol
'alwayz