Absolution

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Sometimes you do things that you do not want to do. Sometimes you say things that you do not want to say. I have done something to regret, for I have let malice escape from my lips. And all that is left is the bitter aftertaste of remorse. Greater is the conviction in one's own heart than any judgment passed by another. I want absolution, but

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i just read this a few days ago & thought it might apply somewhat..

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"....but to transcend that shame, after exposing it, showing it, making it visible. Your pride must be able to undergo shame in order to attain glory." - Jean Genet 'The Miracle of the Rose'

(I have become rather well versed in this area of reflection & shame & regret lately. Not because I must,but because I can & should...in order to evolve & change positivly you must see your errors,truly feel the remorse & fully understand their gravity...as to never repeat them. I hope you feel better & learn a lot from all of this. xo)

Re: i just read this a few days ago & thought it might apply somewhat..

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Few have come of wisdom by the age that you are now. I am very impressed and grateful for your words. I do not know if I will ever feel better about what I did. It is just and deserving, then. I am frightened by what I discover, when I search the image of my reflection for the face that I want to see, but only find the face that should not be seen. I want to be lost...and hope that I will be found again someday, somehow, better. It is good to know that someone out there really cares. Thank you so much :)