I know
I know I hurt you all with my last post. and frankly that was my intention.
With People like Tashy who seem to do nothing but talk down about me (as I see her say it alot atleast) your all jumping to conclusions.
If you were ever in need of my help I'd drop whatever I was doing and be there for you. Yet. in my time of need you all ran or found a lousy excuse to not be there for me. Even a hug was too much to ask for.
I never ever said that my journals speaks the truth. I have never claimed that to be. What I have and do claim is that that is how I feel. So please stop bitching at me and having double standards. Sorry to use you as an example Tashy but look at how you have never said one good word about me to anyone besides the one time I pointed it out to you. But everyone seems to want to attack me because I am human and have feelings too. I'm not the best and never claim to be. I jsut want to stop feling like your all attacking me or that none of you give a shit.
I'm not sorry that my last entry hurt you all. I'd rather vent like that than revert to my old self harm ways. None of you were there so I felt I had to show you how hurt I was. and I only named those of you who made me feel abandoned when I needed you the most.
Now please. Stop jumping to conclusions. Why is it no-one ever asks my side of a story? your all too interested in blaming me for everything. Why do you all seem to forget how much effort I put in to make sure you always have a safe place to go with me when you needed to get away? I work hard IRL at a job which I totaly hate jsut because I want to earn enough money to send you all what was going to be a surprise Christmas gift. I can't be there in person so I wanted to send my closest friends something so they could always feel safe and know I'm there for them. Why do things like hat always get over looked?
Now with that off my chest I feel better.
Me and Tashy are talking and maybe one day we can be friends again. I jsut wish I could say the same for the rest of you...
With People like Tashy who seem to do nothing but talk down about me (as I see her say it alot atleast) your all jumping to conclusions.
If you were ever in need of my help I'd drop whatever I was doing and be there for you. Yet. in my time of need you all ran or found a lousy excuse to not be there for me. Even a hug was too much to ask for.
I never ever said that my journals speaks the truth. I have never claimed that to be. What I have and do claim is that that is how I feel. So please stop bitching at me and having double standards. Sorry to use you as an example Tashy but look at how you have never said one good word about me to anyone besides the one time I pointed it out to you. But everyone seems to want to attack me because I am human and have feelings too. I'm not the best and never claim to be. I jsut want to stop feling like your all attacking me or that none of you give a shit.
I'm not sorry that my last entry hurt you all. I'd rather vent like that than revert to my old self harm ways. None of you were there so I felt I had to show you how hurt I was. and I only named those of you who made me feel abandoned when I needed you the most.
Now please. Stop jumping to conclusions. Why is it no-one ever asks my side of a story? your all too interested in blaming me for everything. Why do you all seem to forget how much effort I put in to make sure you always have a safe place to go with me when you needed to get away? I work hard IRL at a job which I totaly hate jsut because I want to earn enough money to send you all what was going to be a surprise Christmas gift. I can't be there in person so I wanted to send my closest friends something so they could always feel safe and know I'm there for them. Why do things like hat always get over looked?
Now with that off my chest I feel better.
Me and Tashy are talking and maybe one day we can be friends again. I jsut wish I could say the same for the rest of you...