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I am frustrated. My efforts to begin an uprising of Anakins and Jedi against Sidious have come to nothing. Since I asked only the Anakins many people thought I was conceited. It is not that. I know nothing about the ability of any of the others in the Nexus, I am only confident in my own abilities. Therefore, I only asked all versions of me, because I know what we are capable of. I do not want to get anybody killed. It's curious as well, that many bear animosity towards me. Uncomplimentary names are hurled at me, everytime I speak in the Nexus. Is this punishment, penance, for what I nearly became?
I have not seen my Padme for what seems an eternity. Inside I feel lost without her. I must go back, but I am afraid. Afraid of what she might think of what I have become. This person, this monster. Also, according to the inhabitants of the Nexus, I try to kill Padme with the Force. Maybe it is best that I stay away, for her sake. I do not want to hurt my Angel...
I have not seen my Padme for what seems an eternity. Inside I feel lost without her. I must go back, but I am afraid. Afraid of what she might think of what I have become. This person, this monster. Also, according to the inhabitants of the Nexus, I try to kill Padme with the Force. Maybe it is best that I stay away, for her sake. I do not want to hurt my Angel...