Bad Timing.
So...
I said I would repost this when the time came for it to be relevant.
There you are folks.
I feel like it's been a damn long time since I have been able to say this, but...
So, there is this girl.
Her name is Jillian.
She's a gamer, blacksmith, and enjoys doing outdoorsy stuff.
She is wicked cute, and very very attractive.
We've connected on a number of levels, and I'm feeling it easier to just... be in my communications and interactions with her.
The funny thing is' our first interaction was on Eharmony about 2 weeks ago. We met for the first time on saturday, and we proceeded to spend the next, say, 24 hours together.
There was lots of cuddling, and a measure of kissing, that's all. But it made me feel rather happy.
I even feel like the foundation for a "spark" is there. I'm sure you all know how much that means...
I will allow everyone a moment to go "Awwww!" or "About fuckin time!" as I'm sure you all want to.
...
...
...
Ok, now that you've all gotten that out of your systems.
There are complications.
They aren't mine to spell out here, for everyone to see. But they exist, and they.. mean I may have very bad timing.
Nothing may happen due to the fact that I am here at a time where she kind of needs to be single. (which I understand, and will gladly give her the space to do, should she want it.)
It just makes me feel tired, when the buoyancy from our connection was what was keeping me from falling over from exhaustion. The experiences of the weekend were still great, however, and I wouldn't diminish their meaning by any means.
I just feel tired that the choice has even been presented; Stick with this, fight for it, and see what may come of it (good or naught). Or, walk away from that connection now, to conserve the limits of my spirit.
I'm sure you can all guess which option I will end up choosing, and it should come as no surprise, but...
< shrugs on his armor, still battered and scarred, taps the spot over his chest >
I'm willing to fight for this. I'm willing to be strong. I'm willing to understand.
I will stand by her and her choices. To do otherwise would go against what I feel. If you care for someone, you stand by them. Sometimes it takes a Knight to do that, when no one else will.
< salutes >
-RyAn
I said I would repost this when the time came for it to be relevant.
There you are folks.
I feel like it's been a damn long time since I have been able to say this, but...
So, there is this girl.
Her name is Jillian.
She's a gamer, blacksmith, and enjoys doing outdoorsy stuff.
She is wicked cute, and very very attractive.
We've connected on a number of levels, and I'm feeling it easier to just... be in my communications and interactions with her.
The funny thing is' our first interaction was on Eharmony about 2 weeks ago. We met for the first time on saturday, and we proceeded to spend the next, say, 24 hours together.
There was lots of cuddling, and a measure of kissing, that's all. But it made me feel rather happy.
I even feel like the foundation for a "spark" is there. I'm sure you all know how much that means...
I will allow everyone a moment to go "Awwww!" or "About fuckin time!" as I'm sure you all want to.
...
...
...
Ok, now that you've all gotten that out of your systems.
There are complications.
They aren't mine to spell out here, for everyone to see. But they exist, and they.. mean I may have very bad timing.
Nothing may happen due to the fact that I am here at a time where she kind of needs to be single. (which I understand, and will gladly give her the space to do, should she want it.)
It just makes me feel tired, when the buoyancy from our connection was what was keeping me from falling over from exhaustion. The experiences of the weekend were still great, however, and I wouldn't diminish their meaning by any means.
I just feel tired that the choice has even been presented; Stick with this, fight for it, and see what may come of it (good or naught). Or, walk away from that connection now, to conserve the limits of my spirit.
I'm sure you can all guess which option I will end up choosing, and it should come as no surprise, but...
< shrugs on his armor, still battered and scarred, taps the spot over his chest >
I'm willing to fight for this. I'm willing to be strong. I'm willing to understand.
I will stand by her and her choices. To do otherwise would go against what I feel. If you care for someone, you stand by them. Sometimes it takes a Knight to do that, when no one else will.
< salutes >
-RyAn