i'm choosing to post this anonymously because some of this information i haven't told even my closest friends and it would devastate me if people knew.
i believe that people have the right to abort within the first trimester if and ONLY if having the child could cause death for the morther, or if they knew the child would have a life of nothing more than a vegetable. downs syndrome children still have all the rights to live and have just as good lives as any other child. they can even become famous. look at the guy who played corky on "life goes on." he had downs syndrome, and yet, he did acting. he was a spokesperson for the whole anti-drug thing. he did the special olympics a few times. there has also been other downs syndrome actors on shows like seventh heaven. they still have feelings just like regular people and i believe that it is wrong to decide not to let a fetus live just because of downs syndrome or retardation. adoption is always an option if you do not want that "burden" on you.
as for this: "A rape counselor came into psychology on Friday, she said that 1 in 4 girls have been sexually abused before the age of 18....kinda scary... kinda sick..."
when i was between the ages of about 5-7 we had a friend of the family who used to come over a lot. sometimes he would sexually molest me. i remember screaming for my parents sometimes when i was alone in a room with him, and he would always come up with some excuse of that we were playing and i was screaming because he was tickling me or something like that. i was always a shy child and never had the courage to stand up for myself. i remember one time i was in my parents' room and he came in and told me to take off my clothes and have sex with him. i started to cry and he left the room. i don't remember why i could have been so dumb to have not said anything to anyone then, but i guess i was just a scared little child and i thought he would do something bad to me if i told. i don't remember him every threatening me, but i do remember having this huge fear that something horrible would happen if i told. i have gone some 12 years without telling anyone about these happenings and it makes me sick to my stomach to think about all that happened, and i think it might contribute to the slight depression i have now and it might be why i always search for love in all the wrong places, when i just want someone to care for me without all the sexual stuff all the time. child molestation is a horrible thing and i hope that none of my friends have ever had to go through it, because it is something that really weighs on you heavy in the longrun. there have been so many instances where i wanted to just tell someone about what happened, but i think this may be as close as i ever get to telling my story to everyone. i hope that guy loses sleep at night thinking about what he did and how messed up he really made me on the inside. in a way, he took away my innocence. he took a part of me that i will never ever get back, and i hate him for that. i would never wish what i went through on anyone, and i am so thankful that it didn't get any worse than it did. i was never raped, never physically hurt, at least, not to my memory... just very violated and mentally scarred. anyways, i didn't mean to take up so much space writing about this, but that last quote of yours just really got me thinking back to those horrible times of my childhood and i have been waiting 12 years to get all of that out, even if it was anonymously.
There is no way me or anyone else, except those in similiar situations, can understand the kind of emotional pain you've gone through. I am glad that you found the courage to come out and say something and I hope that it helped you feel just a little bit better... Even the fact that you posted anonymously doesnt take away from the fact that you are a very brave person and I hope that you will continue to heal. Despite popular beliefs, I do believe in God, and I hope that he/she can help you through this better than any of us could
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anonymous
March 15 2004, 17:06:50 UTC
i dont know whether or not i know you, but if i do, im damn proud to. it definetly took courage to do that, and im glad that you found someplace that you could let it out. if there is anything that anyone can do to help or do anything, i know that just about everyone that has written in here will be willing to. good luck. -peter
i urge you to tell someone. there are anonymous hotlines, there are support groups, there are many outlets that can help you. this person will do it again unless he is stopped. please consider it. thank you for being so honest and brave. good luck <3
i believe that people have the right to abort within the first trimester if and ONLY if having the child could cause death for the morther, or if they knew the child would have a life of nothing more than a vegetable. downs syndrome children still have all the rights to live and have just as good lives as any other child. they can even become famous. look at the guy who played corky on "life goes on." he had downs syndrome, and yet, he did acting. he was a spokesperson for the whole anti-drug thing. he did the special olympics a few times. there has also been other downs syndrome actors on shows like seventh heaven. they still have feelings just like regular people and i believe that it is wrong to decide not to let a fetus live just because of downs syndrome or retardation. adoption is always an option if you do not want that "burden" on you.
as for this: "A rape counselor came into psychology on Friday, she said that 1 in 4 girls have been sexually abused before the age of 18....kinda scary... kinda sick..."
when i was between the ages of about 5-7 we had a friend of the family who used to come over a lot. sometimes he would sexually molest me. i remember screaming for my parents sometimes when i was alone in a room with him, and he would always come up with some excuse of that we were playing and i was screaming because he was tickling me or something like that. i was always a shy child and never had the courage to stand up for myself. i remember one time i was in my parents' room and he came in and told me to take off my clothes and have sex with him. i started to cry and he left the room. i don't remember why i could have been so dumb to have not said anything to anyone then, but i guess i was just a scared little child and i thought he would do something bad to me if i told. i don't remember him every threatening me, but i do remember having this huge fear that something horrible would happen if i told. i have gone some 12 years without telling anyone about these happenings and it makes me sick to my stomach to think about all that happened, and i think it might contribute to the slight depression i have now and it might be why i always search for love in all the wrong places, when i just want someone to care for me without all the sexual stuff all the time. child molestation is a horrible thing and i hope that none of my friends have ever had to go through it, because it is something that really weighs on you heavy in the longrun. there have been so many instances where i wanted to just tell someone about what happened, but i think this may be as close as i ever get to telling my story to everyone. i hope that guy loses sleep at night thinking about what he did and how messed up he really made me on the inside. in a way, he took away my innocence. he took a part of me that i will never ever get back, and i hate him for that. i would never wish what i went through on anyone, and i am so thankful that it didn't get any worse than it did. i was never raped, never physically hurt, at least, not to my memory... just very violated and mentally scarred. anyways, i didn't mean to take up so much space writing about this, but that last quote of yours just really got me thinking back to those horrible times of my childhood and i have been waiting 12 years to get all of that out, even if it was anonymously.
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Darin
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-peter
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thank you for being so honest and brave.
good luck <3
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it is really appreciated. really.
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