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it's funny how things can affect you in ways you don't expect. in talking the past few days with friends i've come to notice that when something is wrong in the group i'm the last one they expect to be the cause of it. and then when it is me then some how it still can't be my fault. i don't like that at all. i make mistakes all the time and i cause problems among people without realizing it all the time. i'm not some goody two shoes. i can hurt people really bad with my unfeelingness at times. i kinda did yesterday. i try my damnedest not to, but it still happens. i don't know how i came to be on this pedestal, but i'm not as good as i appear. i'm not saying this so that you'll distrust me, but so that you can understand me. i don't like being misunderstood. the end.