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"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And
all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."
life is actually going well for me right now. keeping myself busy, enjoying work, school (yes, i said it), friends, family... now if only I could just sleep all day for Vday. ugh. I'll be at school all day, so I don't have to work which will be nice... Not that I've ever done anything for vday... I could have cared less, but to see everyone else get into it... makes ya kinda wish ya had somebody to share it with, as gay as that might be. my day will come :) so I need to sit back and enjoy the ride till that day comes along... which is exactly what im doing. ...btw i love my new hair... i feel like it's a new me. a good new. i've gotten a lot of positive feedback about it, i wasn't sure about it at first..but i guess ill stick with it.
i wanna go to europe again . especially Italy.