life.
it really bothers me sometimes when people don't follow through with what they say they are gonna do... "talk the talk but can't walk the walk"... "commitment vs. effort". however you wanna put it, you can say one thing but don't have the balls to do anything about it. you can say all you want, that you're gonna do something... but it doesn't mean shit til you do something about it. im not talking about one person in particular, just in general. actually i can include myself in this... i say things sometimes, and don't follow through. i just wish people cared more about other's feelings, and stopped being so selfish. waaayyy too many selfish people out there. i've learned a lot about life since high school, this past year especially... learned even more about who my real friends are. who i can trust. who i can't. i have a lot of nice friends, but only a few that i believe are genuine about it.. people get boyfriends/girlfriends and forget about the rest of his/her life.. this is one thing i absolutely HATE. and i know how it is, i've been there, my relationship eventually suffered because of it... then i was left with nothing, and basically had to rebuild my life up from scratch. i wish i could drill this in people's heads.. your significant other should mean a lot to you, and be a big part of your life. KEY NOTE, 'part' of your life. i don't think that should be all you care about. because it will eventually get old... but, you can't control what other people do... i just wish i could tell everyone this before they make the same mistake i made... besides, i'd rather have a few close friends than a bunch of fake "friends". not just girls, i have a lot more guy friends actually... & i also miss a lot of friends...but wouldn't want to bother with some anymore, bc people change,& not always for the better, and i guess i sometimes tend to have a hard time with change.. but not all change.
im rambling, nobody reads this anymore anyway, so wuteva. just venting..
life goes on.
my job is going well, hopefully ill get to move up to bartender soon... make the $$!
i painted my bathroom this past weekend, came out lovely, bought some nice things to change it up a bit..
i really love living in this house, & absolutely love my roomie, meg. meeting her has been the best thing that has happened to me since graduating high school... i swear we were separated at birth.
i've also been eating better, and running daily, i finally don't feel like shit all the time, and im not so tired all the time either..
like i said, some change is good. but it's sad to see good things and people go bad..
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i feel like im finally growing.