Ascension of Perception
So I went around town today looking for something to eat. My thoughts were pretty limited and going over the current situation over and over. I had formulated plans to strategically play my hand and overcome the harassment that I had been dwelling upon.
I laid down after getting weak, woke up, ate some of the berries I purchased and finished reading Power vs Force. I had read enough of the book that I realized my overall position was Power, but in responding to Force my plans were based on Force as well. I had laid traps, they were successful. I have a lot of position and strength as a result of recent events, but harassment isn't fun regardless of the conditions.
Here is the map of consciousness:
God-viewLife-viewLevel
LogEmotionProcess
SelfIsEnlightenment
700-1000IneffablePure Consciousness
All BeingPerfectPeace
600BlissIllumination
OneCompleteJoy
540SerenityTransfiguration
LovingBenignLove
500ReverenceRevelation
WiseMeaningfulReason
400UnderstandingAbstraction
MercifulHarmoniousAcceptance
350ForgivenessTranscendance
InspiringHopefulWillingness
310OptimismIntention
EnablingSatisfactoryNeutrality
250TrustRelease
PermittingFeasibleCourage
200AffirmationEmpowerment
IndifferentDemandingPride
175ScornInflation
VengefulAntagonisticAnger
150HateAggression
DenyingDisappointingDesire
125CravingEnslavement
PunitiveFrighteningFear
100AnxietyWithdrawal
DisdainfulTragicGrief
75RegretDespondence
CondemningHopelessApathy
50DespairAbdication
VindictiveEvilGuilt
30BlameDestruction
DespisingMiserableShame
20HumiliationElimination
Having been subjected to a lot of Force by people between 30 (blame) and 100 (fear) I had come up with a series of responses that use Force. I read Power vs Force more, and contemplated my plans, methods, possibilities. Diabetes is an illness of resentment, and here I was resenting the people. I need to oppose the actions, but I also need to forgive, love and cherish the people who oppose me. I don't know what my actions will be, because they all depend on actions by other people. I still endeavor for decent outcomes, and there aren't many options that I can make available to other people. There are always choices, and at the very least we can chose how we react. Everything I do is intentional, but I'm not sure how help other people contemplate intentional action instead of merely reacting. If it comes down to knee jerk reactions I know I'll 'win', but I look at the entire process and methods as distasteful and crass.
I laid down after getting weak, woke up, ate some of the berries I purchased and finished reading Power vs Force. I had read enough of the book that I realized my overall position was Power, but in responding to Force my plans were based on Force as well. I had laid traps, they were successful. I have a lot of position and strength as a result of recent events, but harassment isn't fun regardless of the conditions.
Here is the map of consciousness:
God-viewLife-viewLevel
LogEmotionProcess
SelfIsEnlightenment
700-1000IneffablePure Consciousness
All BeingPerfectPeace
600BlissIllumination
OneCompleteJoy
540SerenityTransfiguration
LovingBenignLove
500ReverenceRevelation
WiseMeaningfulReason
400UnderstandingAbstraction
MercifulHarmoniousAcceptance
350ForgivenessTranscendance
InspiringHopefulWillingness
310OptimismIntention
EnablingSatisfactoryNeutrality
250TrustRelease
PermittingFeasibleCourage
200AffirmationEmpowerment
IndifferentDemandingPride
175ScornInflation
VengefulAntagonisticAnger
150HateAggression
DenyingDisappointingDesire
125CravingEnslavement
PunitiveFrighteningFear
100AnxietyWithdrawal
DisdainfulTragicGrief
75RegretDespondence
CondemningHopelessApathy
50DespairAbdication
VindictiveEvilGuilt
30BlameDestruction
DespisingMiserableShame
20HumiliationElimination
Having been subjected to a lot of Force by people between 30 (blame) and 100 (fear) I had come up with a series of responses that use Force. I read Power vs Force more, and contemplated my plans, methods, possibilities. Diabetes is an illness of resentment, and here I was resenting the people. I need to oppose the actions, but I also need to forgive, love and cherish the people who oppose me. I don't know what my actions will be, because they all depend on actions by other people. I still endeavor for decent outcomes, and there aren't many options that I can make available to other people. There are always choices, and at the very least we can chose how we react. Everything I do is intentional, but I'm not sure how help other people contemplate intentional action instead of merely reacting. If it comes down to knee jerk reactions I know I'll 'win', but I look at the entire process and methods as distasteful and crass.