life is fuckin crazy

[dara_marlena]

WOW!!! it has been ages since i wrote in this thing...but i've been wanting to write for a while just to get some things out. if you don't have time to read this you might not want to start cause i tend to get deep once i start writing. so where do i start

Comments

[anonymous]

things will get better for you just be happy that your out of the situation like with Corey and someone else is left there to see his stupidity...everyone goes through that shit of how hard it is to let someone go but YOU know someone else is out there who can treat you even better if you just let him. You seem like your starting to realize what really is important...5 years from now think of who really will be there? Corey? I don't think so...he moved on to be with someone new and you should be able to too, don't worry about him..somethings aren't meant to happen the way you've planned but you can't try to make things happen either I love the whole LJ thing, writing seems to be the best thing to just get it all and it's funny how EVERYONE can relate to the same shit and you don't even know. The best thing my ex could have done for me is just to let me be happy and I let him do the same..maybe he is happy and you want to think he's not, and maybe that goes for you too you can't sit and say o he dosen't love her blahblah b.c maybe he really does but maybe he wants you to be happy too Dara...take care THINGS WILL GET BETTER!

back at ya

[dara_marlena]

well anonomous person...i dont know who u are or how well you know me but i dont really know if your someone close b/c then maybe you wouldnt be saying those things i mean not that your being mean or anything its just that there is so much that others dont know...things that may make it harder on me, its not the matter of him being with someone else that hurts me but when he tries talking to me and telling me he loves me after a month or so when im finally moving on when he is supposenly in love- you say that i need to let him be happy and that im just saying he doesnt love her b/c i dont want to believe it but thats not it- it's him, i do leave him alone i am the one letting it go hes the one that goes back and forth from hating me to loving me again and loving her and wantting me out of his life to just using her b/c im not around or so he says...im glad if he is happy and i am happy to but if hes so happy then maybe he should try not to fuck things up like he did with me and actually make something of his life...instead he lies constantly and i think he goes out of his way to make my life hell by doing that shit. theres just so much more to the story i just dont feel like anouncing it to the world..you may know already if you are someone close but if u were i dont think ud leeve it as anonmous but thanks for that and i know things will get bettter they already have its just a matter of things getting better for my friends and people i care about and for people to relize that its not me i dont want the drama anymore i dont want the dumb comments i just am ready for him to leave. gosh how did u even know to read this i havent written in so long?

Re: back at ya

[anonymous]

gUys...I swear, its like they don't know what to do, they want the best of both worlds I'd tell his ass to fuck off cause obviously there is some happiness in there if he's still with her...I don't know and guys try to say that we're the ones who are crazy and shit..is he still telling you all this shit? its like when something is going wrong in a guys relationship I guess they find the need to call up the old and start that shit cause it's probably not like you hear from him to0 much else..I know where ya coming from its like you finally ok with things and then he has to come with that shit and it makes you think, period ya know? does he wanna be back with you? I mean don't listen to that bullshit if hes still with another girl...fuck his shit up and let her know whats going on I bet she would love to know about it do ya'll have drama u and his ole ladY?

Re: back at ya

[anonymous]

uhh yeah well considering you're leeving these comments as ANONOMOUS i really don't know why you are so currious and shit..or who you would be that you would even be worried or asking me all these questions...but i know damn well you arent a good friend cause they already know everything.. but if you really want to know YOU can ask me because i can say so much shit right now but i'm not saying anything over livejournal for everyone to see and it's not my obligation to tell his ole lady...yeah i've wanted to just b/c i love how its always made out to be ME who wants him and shit but i'm not going out of my way to tell her anything b/c i dont care its none of my buisness anymore, do i think she should know? yeah i always wanted to when i was with him but the things is me n her have had it out a few times and it solves NOTHING she acts like my friend for about a week and swears shes not going to be with him..until she gets what she wants from me and then she hates me again and shes back with him within a few days so im not wasting my time if she wants to know she can ask me and i might tell her but its not MY job to go tell her about her boyfriend that she thinks is so perfect, and yeah i can get back at him real bad and fuck his shit up but then you know what happens i get called the IMMATURE one and i'm just tryna start shit and i just want him and if i say shit then that menas i care so you know what i do IGNORE the shit i've done it for about 2 months and i can continue to, it seems to work well for me. but in other words i have a clue who this is and i'm not playing these secret agent games if you want to talk to me i/m me you know the name and if not then drop the shit and don't leave me comments on here b/c im not letting the world know every detail and i really dont have time for the drama. So when you decide to tell me who you are then you can ask me anythiing you want to know dude...