R.I.P
This last couple of weeks have been completely crazy... and im a complete wreck that is why i feel the need to write and just let all my feelings out...
On October 31st my friend Raynelle from NJCU passed away... she was a great girl.. 25yrs old recently graduated .... had he whole life ahead of her... and one night she went to sleep and didnt wake up.... WHAT THE HELL?? how does that happen??? i cant come up with the answer and my anger and sadness blinds me right now... im just mad at death ...
On November 24th the lady that is training me passed away.... 55 years old.. went to sleep also didnt wake up... I've been in the bank for little over a month , but i already liked this lady.. i even hugged her that friday before she left.... i couldnt help but cry and just ask my self,,, y is this happening to me? wasnt loosing someone i know enough???
Im selfish i understand that.. because is not happening to me... im thinking only of my pain and that is nothing compared to the pain their relatives are feeling...
AND now ... November 27 my GOOOD friend from grammar school got murdered.... this guy was such a great guy,.... he was cute, smart, sweet, just a dead up GREAT GUY... his name was Mario Vargas.. and i just cant begin to explain how sad and mad i am right now... his death afected me more then anything right now... he was young... soo much going for him.... it hurst to know that hes gone and i wont c him again... i wish i could go back in time to 6th,7th,8th,9tth grade and just be with him,.... hug him and tell him how much he means to me.... his smile brighten my days so many times.. i miss him already.....
ive realized that im a bad friend... is moments like this that show u that u should keep in touch with ur friends.. and not forget about old friends... now im left with soo many what ifs.... with mario, raynelle and samia...
MARIO... baby i love u... and Jehovah knows how much i already miss u... miss ur smile, ur laugh.... te extrano todo....im sorry i never told u how important u were to me, how much everything u did meant to me... and that just having u in my life meant the world to me... hope to see u soon and would of given anythin to change the way things happened....
REGRET AND GUILT WONT BRING MARIO BACK ... BUT IN MY HEART I KNOW THAT WHOEVER IS RESPONSIBLE FOR HIS DEATH WILL PAY, if not now.. someday... THINGS COME BACK TO U TIMES 10.. AND TAKING SOMEONES LIFE FOR ANY REASON IS UNNACEPTABLE...
u've taken away someone's son, brother, friend and love....
On October 31st my friend Raynelle from NJCU passed away... she was a great girl.. 25yrs old recently graduated .... had he whole life ahead of her... and one night she went to sleep and didnt wake up.... WHAT THE HELL?? how does that happen??? i cant come up with the answer and my anger and sadness blinds me right now... im just mad at death ...
On November 24th the lady that is training me passed away.... 55 years old.. went to sleep also didnt wake up... I've been in the bank for little over a month , but i already liked this lady.. i even hugged her that friday before she left.... i couldnt help but cry and just ask my self,,, y is this happening to me? wasnt loosing someone i know enough???
Im selfish i understand that.. because is not happening to me... im thinking only of my pain and that is nothing compared to the pain their relatives are feeling...
AND now ... November 27 my GOOOD friend from grammar school got murdered.... this guy was such a great guy,.... he was cute, smart, sweet, just a dead up GREAT GUY... his name was Mario Vargas.. and i just cant begin to explain how sad and mad i am right now... his death afected me more then anything right now... he was young... soo much going for him.... it hurst to know that hes gone and i wont c him again... i wish i could go back in time to 6th,7th,8th,9tth grade and just be with him,.... hug him and tell him how much he means to me.... his smile brighten my days so many times.. i miss him already.....
ive realized that im a bad friend... is moments like this that show u that u should keep in touch with ur friends.. and not forget about old friends... now im left with soo many what ifs.... with mario, raynelle and samia...
MARIO... baby i love u... and Jehovah knows how much i already miss u... miss ur smile, ur laugh.... te extrano todo....im sorry i never told u how important u were to me, how much everything u did meant to me... and that just having u in my life meant the world to me... hope to see u soon and would of given anythin to change the way things happened....
REGRET AND GUILT WONT BRING MARIO BACK ... BUT IN MY HEART I KNOW THAT WHOEVER IS RESPONSIBLE FOR HIS DEATH WILL PAY, if not now.. someday... THINGS COME BACK TO U TIMES 10.. AND TAKING SOMEONES LIFE FOR ANY REASON IS UNNACEPTABLE...
u've taken away someone's son, brother, friend and love....