LONG TIME I KNOE..
ill update about my life later...
yesteday i went out with a couple of friends to the city... one of the was kinda tipsy and got kinda emotional and deep and starting talking about marriage and regrets... although he was drunk and everything he made me realize a lot... theres been times in the past were (talking about love) ive kept my mouth shut just to please people and let some great guys go cuz i didnt wanna hurt anybody... FOR EXAMPLE there was this great brother that liked me.... we were soo cool, he was by far the nicest most perfect guy that ive met. He was like the bestest but we just met at the wrong time... i was still focused on this other brother ( my puppy love) who was a jerk and regardless all that i adored him, soo i payed my friend no mind. He told me he would wait as long as it took... he had everything. he was spiritual,he had a good job, a great personality EVERYTHING.. but w/e i didnt get with him,... we lost touch for a while .. he needed the space to get over me n stuff... one day out of no where he calls me and tells me that the following day he is going to propose to his girl... and asks me wat do u think>? i honestly wanted to die.. and be like WAT ??? U CANT MARRY HER!! it was that day i realized i really cared for him and i realized how bad it felt to loose such a great guy,., but instead of telling him DONT DO IT.. I WANT TO GIVE US A TRY i told him ... ur making the right decision, u deserve the best... congrats... UNTIL THIS DAY.. I wonder (everytime i get emotional) what coulda been.. would him and me be together now? why did i let him go>? he called me for a reason that night,.. before even proposing THAT was big... but i was a punk and kept my mouth shut...
I thought of the girl.. and how she would feel. I felt that mayb if we tried it out it might not work and i didnt want him to loose a good girl just to try things out with me... but mainly i thought of his girl... u know i wouldnt want done to me... but anywayz..... now im full or regrets... and yesterday i realized that sux and i need to start thinking on myself first..and thats what im gonna do... im going to just be true to my feelings and for once not think of who im gonna hurt...
yesteday i went out with a couple of friends to the city... one of the was kinda tipsy and got kinda emotional and deep and starting talking about marriage and regrets... although he was drunk and everything he made me realize a lot... theres been times in the past were (talking about love) ive kept my mouth shut just to please people and let some great guys go cuz i didnt wanna hurt anybody... FOR EXAMPLE there was this great brother that liked me.... we were soo cool, he was by far the nicest most perfect guy that ive met. He was like the bestest but we just met at the wrong time... i was still focused on this other brother ( my puppy love) who was a jerk and regardless all that i adored him, soo i payed my friend no mind. He told me he would wait as long as it took... he had everything. he was spiritual,he had a good job, a great personality EVERYTHING.. but w/e i didnt get with him,... we lost touch for a while .. he needed the space to get over me n stuff... one day out of no where he calls me and tells me that the following day he is going to propose to his girl... and asks me wat do u think>? i honestly wanted to die.. and be like WAT ??? U CANT MARRY HER!! it was that day i realized i really cared for him and i realized how bad it felt to loose such a great guy,., but instead of telling him DONT DO IT.. I WANT TO GIVE US A TRY i told him ... ur making the right decision, u deserve the best... congrats... UNTIL THIS DAY.. I wonder (everytime i get emotional) what coulda been.. would him and me be together now? why did i let him go>? he called me for a reason that night,.. before even proposing THAT was big... but i was a punk and kept my mouth shut...
I thought of the girl.. and how she would feel. I felt that mayb if we tried it out it might not work and i didnt want him to loose a good girl just to try things out with me... but mainly i thought of his girl... u know i wouldnt want done to me... but anywayz..... now im full or regrets... and yesterday i realized that sux and i need to start thinking on myself first..and thats what im gonna do... im going to just be true to my feelings and for once not think of who im gonna hurt...