What I've been up too, blog update
Sunday, December 11, 2005
I don't understand why mozart didnt kill himself
I have been working on my sonata for 18 hours so far this weekend. I took breaks to eat and sleep, that's pretty much it. At least I'm almost done, only 35 more measures to go! My brain hurts, and I don't think the hurtings going to stop for a good long time. I found my copy of finale so it's on the computer and hooked up to my keyboard so thats pretty cool, I can listen to it like it's supposed to be played instead badly played when I try to play it. And it's much neater than if I have to hand write all 9 freakin pages of it. Make the madness stop, oh no I feel the compulsion to get back to work it's like in the fairy tales when people get enchanted and they can't stop dancing and they eventually drop dead. I can't stop composing, hopefully the compulsion will stop before I too drop dead.
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Friday, December 09, 2005
ME AANGRY! Grrrrr
I am so frustrated right now. I just came back from the radio taping of the choir and orchestra. It so infuriating to be in choir right now, they are so immature. It's a freaking taping and people are talking, even talking over Dr. Tuttle. THis is college you socialize after the performance. Solists even remarked on their performance while tape was still running for the rest of the song. Yeha we all know you suck we don't need you to talk about it. Another thing two of the soloist girs don't sing the right rythm or pitches. I just don't understand why they are singing, why they get to record and I got nothing. They don't even care about this music, they are jazzers and they are never going to sing classical professionally and yet they get picked over me. And this is all going on while supposedly my voice is getting better and better in lessons and I shouldnt have any competition and blah blah blah. It just leaves me so confused. And to top it all off I have to blame myself for all this because I couldnt learn the duet. I worked so hard on it and I just didnt get it and didnt get any help really. Today he said it was alot better but just not polished enough to perform. Like the girls who can't even say the right words or come in at their cue hmmm I wonder why they didnt get cut? Ughg I'm just so frustrated and confused.
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Thursday, December 08, 2005
mmmmm Fudge and John Stewart..and vampires?
Kendra and I just drank about a whole bottle of Vampire wine it was good, we also ate fudge....that too was good. Now we're watching the daily show and making xmas ornaments whilst slightly inebriated. I love christmas...and wine...and fudge
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Ich brauche mehr kafee! (I need more coffee)
I went to Neumans German Bakery today on 105th and Sandy for Deutsche klasse. It was really cool, Kendra and I are going to go back over break and try to speak German with them! I bought some vampire brand wine there, I 'm really excited about it. I read about that company in some magazine and it's supposed to be pretty good wine plus its named after vampires which makes it even better! Yay JAzz and twink will be here soon!!! I can't wait to see them, I've missed them so much!!!!!! My head still hurts....I should make Tuttle feel bad but I just don't have the time.
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Awww I am concussed or something similar
So Dr. T tried to kill me with the school elevator today. Julie and I were helping him carry some stuff down to the theatre for rehearsal and he let the door fall on my head. Now my brain and neck hurts...oh well I wasnt using my brain anyway. It's like I attract calamitous accidents, my mom says my elecromagnetic field is wack or something....hmmm I wonder if acupuncture can fix wacked out electromagnetic fields. I cannot wait for this term to be over...I think I'm gonna make it through all right. My kittens smell like poo, they keep sleeping in their litter box, I don't know how to make them stop. It's soooo gross. Kendra gave them a bath tonight, I hope they don't ruin it by sleeping in their own feces again. Why are my pets always retarded? I think Thor the spider who lives in the window is the only normal pet and he's a freaking spider. My parent's are so weird! Who has a pet spider in their window? Besides my parents. I hope people come to my party...I almost don't care though cause Jazz and twink won't be there. It will be fun. Yeah I'm still having weird dreams and I can't stop thinking about someone...I wish I could just forget about it but I can't and it's driving me nuts. Oh well I was kinda nuts anyway.
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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Look at me I'm on TV!
We recorded the orchestra performance today for mhcc tv. No one will see it but at least it was interesting and I could play everything but the vivaldi piece. My mom found kittens in the yard today! They are the two sweetest kittens I have ever seen, one is mostly black short hair with a white mark here and there and the other one is a fluffy longhaired gray tabby, right now I'm calling them Paco and Stormy but we'll see how they're personalities come out. I am so glad the term is almost over! I hate choir right now, I ended up with no solo's and it's like a slap in the face to listen to (with the exception of Kendra and Julie) people who are not up to par. One girl doesnt even sing the right words. I just don't understand what the good doctor is thinking. Yesterday he told me if I stayed on another year he would give me things to do and then the next day my piece is taken out of the program. I better have more to do next term or things are gonna come to a head.
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Weirdo Dreams
I have been having the weirdest dreams lately. THe other night I had one where I was a Chinese refugee but i wasn't really chinese everyone just thought I was. I also had 2 babies and had to feed them peanut butter crackers because there wasnt anything else. Last night It was really wierd.. my family and I were walking home and my bro was really skinny and holding a baby we were watching and he went to walk over this bridge and an alligator/kimodo dragon with half its snout gone jumped on them. It had a poisonous horn on it's stomach/ chest area which touched the baby and she passed out. That's how we figured out it was poisonous. It then started to chase me it's horn touched me and I ran into this group of costumed hooligans which distracted it untill the ambulance and police came. The doctor made us drink milk to get better and then the ambulance turned into a subway. Then It ran over the escaped alligator thing and I wake up. The moral of the story: Drink milk if your touched by an alligator monster's poisonous horn? Or don't smoke crack. Thats all I've got.
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Saturday, November 26, 2005
You know what?
Fuck cake. That's right I said it and I'm not sorry...fuck cake, fuck it.
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Friday, November 25, 2005
nothing beats hot chocolate
I just made homemade hot chocolate with chili powder. It's real hella good! MMmmmm Spicy!
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Too much fun
Yeah, wow. I am never drinking again. Lexi's party was awesome but my homemade sangria kicked my ass from here to sunday. I guess I got all emo and cried. The last thing I remember is yelling at some guy and crying about the troops in Iraq which is sad yes but does not really touch me at my emotional core so it was weird I got so upset. I woke up and was all confused cause I thought it just been a few minutes but it had been hours. So the moral of the story is I am not fit for the company of others if I drink.
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I don't understand why mozart didnt kill himself
I have been working on my sonata for 18 hours so far this weekend. I took breaks to eat and sleep, that's pretty much it. At least I'm almost done, only 35 more measures to go! My brain hurts, and I don't think the hurtings going to stop for a good long time. I found my copy of finale so it's on the computer and hooked up to my keyboard so thats pretty cool, I can listen to it like it's supposed to be played instead badly played when I try to play it. And it's much neater than if I have to hand write all 9 freakin pages of it. Make the madness stop, oh no I feel the compulsion to get back to work it's like in the fairy tales when people get enchanted and they can't stop dancing and they eventually drop dead. I can't stop composing, hopefully the compulsion will stop before I too drop dead.
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Friday, December 09, 2005
ME AANGRY! Grrrrr
I am so frustrated right now. I just came back from the radio taping of the choir and orchestra. It so infuriating to be in choir right now, they are so immature. It's a freaking taping and people are talking, even talking over Dr. Tuttle. THis is college you socialize after the performance. Solists even remarked on their performance while tape was still running for the rest of the song. Yeha we all know you suck we don't need you to talk about it. Another thing two of the soloist girs don't sing the right rythm or pitches. I just don't understand why they are singing, why they get to record and I got nothing. They don't even care about this music, they are jazzers and they are never going to sing classical professionally and yet they get picked over me. And this is all going on while supposedly my voice is getting better and better in lessons and I shouldnt have any competition and blah blah blah. It just leaves me so confused. And to top it all off I have to blame myself for all this because I couldnt learn the duet. I worked so hard on it and I just didnt get it and didnt get any help really. Today he said it was alot better but just not polished enough to perform. Like the girls who can't even say the right words or come in at their cue hmmm I wonder why they didnt get cut? Ughg I'm just so frustrated and confused.
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Thursday, December 08, 2005
mmmmm Fudge and John Stewart..and vampires?
Kendra and I just drank about a whole bottle of Vampire wine it was good, we also ate fudge....that too was good. Now we're watching the daily show and making xmas ornaments whilst slightly inebriated. I love christmas...and wine...and fudge
11:12 PM - 2 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
Ich brauche mehr kafee! (I need more coffee)
I went to Neumans German Bakery today on 105th and Sandy for Deutsche klasse. It was really cool, Kendra and I are going to go back over break and try to speak German with them! I bought some vampire brand wine there, I 'm really excited about it. I read about that company in some magazine and it's supposed to be pretty good wine plus its named after vampires which makes it even better! Yay JAzz and twink will be here soon!!! I can't wait to see them, I've missed them so much!!!!!! My head still hurts....I should make Tuttle feel bad but I just don't have the time.
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Awww I am concussed or something similar
So Dr. T tried to kill me with the school elevator today. Julie and I were helping him carry some stuff down to the theatre for rehearsal and he let the door fall on my head. Now my brain and neck hurts...oh well I wasnt using my brain anyway. It's like I attract calamitous accidents, my mom says my elecromagnetic field is wack or something....hmmm I wonder if acupuncture can fix wacked out electromagnetic fields. I cannot wait for this term to be over...I think I'm gonna make it through all right. My kittens smell like poo, they keep sleeping in their litter box, I don't know how to make them stop. It's soooo gross. Kendra gave them a bath tonight, I hope they don't ruin it by sleeping in their own feces again. Why are my pets always retarded? I think Thor the spider who lives in the window is the only normal pet and he's a freaking spider. My parent's are so weird! Who has a pet spider in their window? Besides my parents. I hope people come to my party...I almost don't care though cause Jazz and twink won't be there. It will be fun. Yeah I'm still having weird dreams and I can't stop thinking about someone...I wish I could just forget about it but I can't and it's driving me nuts. Oh well I was kinda nuts anyway.
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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Look at me I'm on TV!
We recorded the orchestra performance today for mhcc tv. No one will see it but at least it was interesting and I could play everything but the vivaldi piece. My mom found kittens in the yard today! They are the two sweetest kittens I have ever seen, one is mostly black short hair with a white mark here and there and the other one is a fluffy longhaired gray tabby, right now I'm calling them Paco and Stormy but we'll see how they're personalities come out. I am so glad the term is almost over! I hate choir right now, I ended up with no solo's and it's like a slap in the face to listen to (with the exception of Kendra and Julie) people who are not up to par. One girl doesnt even sing the right words. I just don't understand what the good doctor is thinking. Yesterday he told me if I stayed on another year he would give me things to do and then the next day my piece is taken out of the program. I better have more to do next term or things are gonna come to a head.
5:21 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Weirdo Dreams
I have been having the weirdest dreams lately. THe other night I had one where I was a Chinese refugee but i wasn't really chinese everyone just thought I was. I also had 2 babies and had to feed them peanut butter crackers because there wasnt anything else. Last night It was really wierd.. my family and I were walking home and my bro was really skinny and holding a baby we were watching and he went to walk over this bridge and an alligator/kimodo dragon with half its snout gone jumped on them. It had a poisonous horn on it's stomach/ chest area which touched the baby and she passed out. That's how we figured out it was poisonous. It then started to chase me it's horn touched me and I ran into this group of costumed hooligans which distracted it untill the ambulance and police came. The doctor made us drink milk to get better and then the ambulance turned into a subway. Then It ran over the escaped alligator thing and I wake up. The moral of the story: Drink milk if your touched by an alligator monster's poisonous horn? Or don't smoke crack. Thats all I've got.
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Saturday, November 26, 2005
You know what?
Fuck cake. That's right I said it and I'm not sorry...fuck cake, fuck it.
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Friday, November 25, 2005
nothing beats hot chocolate
I just made homemade hot chocolate with chili powder. It's real hella good! MMmmmm Spicy!
9:01 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
Too much fun
Yeah, wow. I am never drinking again. Lexi's party was awesome but my homemade sangria kicked my ass from here to sunday. I guess I got all emo and cried. The last thing I remember is yelling at some guy and crying about the troops in Iraq which is sad yes but does not really touch me at my emotional core so it was weird I got so upset. I woke up and was all confused cause I thought it just been a few minutes but it had been hours. So the moral of the story is I am not fit for the company of others if I drink.
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