I am so confused!
I am so confused, I don't know what to do. I really don't have anyone to talk to about anything any more. I wish I knew what I was feeling... I really do, but I don't. I don't know how I feel about anything... ANYTHING!
I'm not sure that I am going to be able to keep up with any of this anymore... I don't want to deal with it. Everything that I thought I knew, has been turned upside down. I don't understand why I feel this way either. I really don't. I should be happy that Denise is home for good... Right? That means that I now have someone to talk to again... Right? WRONG! It's hard to explain, it's hard to understand. I think that I have moved to someplace where I just can't have help... because I don't think I want it anymore. I don't want to have to bother any of you anymore.... I don't want you guys to have to deal with me... I don't know what to do.
I don't think that I can do anything about where I am at this point in time... I don't think I know how. Hell... I don't even know where my feelings for Brandon are anymore. I do care about him, I really do... but things aren't the same. I don't know how to explain it, because I'm not positive for myself... but I shouldn't even be saying these things to you guys, not with out saying something to Brandon first.... so... I guess this is where I stop... Other than to say one thing... I am not confused about anything that has to do with Brandon when I am with him... and I just started to think about it today, actually about 10 minutes ago. So, here I stop.
I'm not sure that I am going to be able to keep up with any of this anymore... I don't want to deal with it. Everything that I thought I knew, has been turned upside down. I don't understand why I feel this way either. I really don't. I should be happy that Denise is home for good... Right? That means that I now have someone to talk to again... Right? WRONG! It's hard to explain, it's hard to understand. I think that I have moved to someplace where I just can't have help... because I don't think I want it anymore. I don't want to have to bother any of you anymore.... I don't want you guys to have to deal with me... I don't know what to do.
I don't think that I can do anything about where I am at this point in time... I don't think I know how. Hell... I don't even know where my feelings for Brandon are anymore. I do care about him, I really do... but things aren't the same. I don't know how to explain it, because I'm not positive for myself... but I shouldn't even be saying these things to you guys, not with out saying something to Brandon first.... so... I guess this is where I stop... Other than to say one thing... I am not confused about anything that has to do with Brandon when I am with him... and I just started to think about it today, actually about 10 minutes ago. So, here I stop.