A minor set back
I suppose that I haven't really been myself lately, so I have decided that I am ready to explain: (I apologize if this is long)
1. I have finally decided and I am ready to admit that I no longer give a damn about anyone. This includes guys, girls, and whatever else. I am not waiting around for anyone anymore, and I am not out to please people. If I do something to piss you off, deal with it. I am dealing with your shit. Remember, this includes anyone. This is not a claim to a specific person at all.
2. I am going to turn over a new leaf. If there is something that I don't like about someone, or some situation, I am going to tell it how it is. I don't care if feelings get hurt. I am tired of bottling up everything inside me and then crying because I dont have the balls to talk about it. I hope that others will do the same with me. There is no use walking on egg shells for anyone. It doesn't get anywhere and I end up feeling horrible.
3. I don't know if I will be going back to school this fall. I have weighed the possibilites over and over again for the past few weeks. I know that you might think of this as me giving up when I am so close, but I relize that I have been hiding from reality. I don't like to ask my parents for help, and If I go back to school, I am going to have to because bills are too expensive. I have also decided that I don't need this business degree for me to accomplish my goals, it has merely been an excuse becuase I didn't want to leave my friends or my comfort zone at college. But I have realized that I have graduated with a degree and I am working how I want to. I am supporting myself and that is the best feeling in the world. I don't want anyone to look at me differently but to possibly accept my decision. This is not a final decision by any means, because I still have to talk to my parents. I will make my final decision when I get back from going home.
1. I have finally decided and I am ready to admit that I no longer give a damn about anyone. This includes guys, girls, and whatever else. I am not waiting around for anyone anymore, and I am not out to please people. If I do something to piss you off, deal with it. I am dealing with your shit. Remember, this includes anyone. This is not a claim to a specific person at all.
2. I am going to turn over a new leaf. If there is something that I don't like about someone, or some situation, I am going to tell it how it is. I don't care if feelings get hurt. I am tired of bottling up everything inside me and then crying because I dont have the balls to talk about it. I hope that others will do the same with me. There is no use walking on egg shells for anyone. It doesn't get anywhere and I end up feeling horrible.
3. I don't know if I will be going back to school this fall. I have weighed the possibilites over and over again for the past few weeks. I know that you might think of this as me giving up when I am so close, but I relize that I have been hiding from reality. I don't like to ask my parents for help, and If I go back to school, I am going to have to because bills are too expensive. I have also decided that I don't need this business degree for me to accomplish my goals, it has merely been an excuse becuase I didn't want to leave my friends or my comfort zone at college. But I have realized that I have graduated with a degree and I am working how I want to. I am supporting myself and that is the best feeling in the world. I don't want anyone to look at me differently but to possibly accept my decision. This is not a final decision by any means, because I still have to talk to my parents. I will make my final decision when I get back from going home.