Better than anticipated
Judy surprised us all and showed up at rehearsal tonight. Gulp. Panic. Breathe. Move on. I hate Judy-Panic. I've just been so voice-conscious this semester, and I didn't even realize that it was her out in the house until the end of the first act. And then when the run was over, Danielle our SM came back and said, "Ok, ladies, we're going to do Judy notes and then Eric notes." Yikes. But she had really good things to say, both in the way of compliments on top of totally constructive criticism. She really likes my dialects, which I'm really proud of. But she had lots and lots of notes about me pushing my throat, which is true. But she also said something I really needed to hear: "You have a strong voice. Relax it and trust that it will carry you." Whoa. Intense, right? But in the best possible way.
A self-centered moment, sorry: I'm really happy that I'm starting to take compliments about my acting without qualifying or denying them. Makeba and I were talking about life after school, and she said, "Well, you'll be fine no matter where you end up. You're very talented." And I managed to stop myself from immediately contradicting her, which is what I've conditioned myself to do whenever someone tells me I might be good at what I do. I just said thank you, pure and simple and done. Same thing with Judy when she told me my dialects sound good. That's a big step for me, and I'm impressed that I've come as far with actorly confidence as I have in the last few weeks. A lot of that is thanks to Eric. I heard a great story from Hannah as told to her by John Cameron, or JC as he is in my Meisner journal. Apparently at casting, Eric walked into that first mainstage round, wrote all seven of our names on the board, turned around, said, "I'm not trading these ladies," and walked out. Done. What an honor, right? And it makes me think that I can do this, and screw anybody who thinks otherwise. And I'm proud of this show. I know it can be better, but it's way outside my comfort zone and I'm doing a good job. So yeah. Go me.
In other news, Jamie and I are better today. We'll see how long it lasts. It's so day to day with us, so I'll just run with the good days and put off the bad ones as long as I can.
Tech this weekend. So exciting. But first, another And Baby Makes Seven readthrough on Thursday! I couldn't even believe they wanted to do it again so soon, but they totally did! Yay! And Christina will there this time, and Cheyanne is officially onboard and talking to me about ideas and I'm so freaking EXCITED. She will also be living in Abby's room next semester, which means I'll my set designer constantly at my disposal. Mwahaha!
A self-centered moment, sorry: I'm really happy that I'm starting to take compliments about my acting without qualifying or denying them. Makeba and I were talking about life after school, and she said, "Well, you'll be fine no matter where you end up. You're very talented." And I managed to stop myself from immediately contradicting her, which is what I've conditioned myself to do whenever someone tells me I might be good at what I do. I just said thank you, pure and simple and done. Same thing with Judy when she told me my dialects sound good. That's a big step for me, and I'm impressed that I've come as far with actorly confidence as I have in the last few weeks. A lot of that is thanks to Eric. I heard a great story from Hannah as told to her by John Cameron, or JC as he is in my Meisner journal. Apparently at casting, Eric walked into that first mainstage round, wrote all seven of our names on the board, turned around, said, "I'm not trading these ladies," and walked out. Done. What an honor, right? And it makes me think that I can do this, and screw anybody who thinks otherwise. And I'm proud of this show. I know it can be better, but it's way outside my comfort zone and I'm doing a good job. So yeah. Go me.
In other news, Jamie and I are better today. We'll see how long it lasts. It's so day to day with us, so I'll just run with the good days and put off the bad ones as long as I can.
Tech this weekend. So exciting. But first, another And Baby Makes Seven readthrough on Thursday! I couldn't even believe they wanted to do it again so soon, but they totally did! Yay! And Christina will there this time, and Cheyanne is officially onboard and talking to me about ideas and I'm so freaking EXCITED. She will also be living in Abby's room next semester, which means I'll my set designer constantly at my disposal. Mwahaha!