Giddy as a schoolgirl
I just spent an hour chatting via facebook with Killeen. I am a firm believer in chemistry when it comes to the early phases of a relationship, namely dating. In my personal experience, if there's no spark, it's not worth pursuing. I've tried to push myself to be attracted to people who I have lots in common with and who seem like they'd be "right" for me, but at the end of the day it's not very productive. It's either there, or it's not. Sometimes it takes a first kiss to figure it out, but sometimes you can feel chemistry (or the lack of it) right away. When I tried dating Kassi, it just wasn't there. I thought maybe the first kiss would do it, but it was pretty much a dud. First kisses with Jamie and Arielle were magic. With me, chemistry is a pretty black-or-white issue.
This is why I am freaking thrilled by what I can feel going on between Killeen and I. I don't know how many times we both said, "It's so great talking to you," over the course of our chat. And when we were on the phone earlier, it was so easy to just talk to her. I'm usually HORRIBLE on the phone. I get all kinds of awkward, even with people I know very well. Killeen and I spent 20 minutes on the phone like it was nothing, though I don't think we've ever had a conversation that long, and certainly not just the two of us. We talked and e-chatted about school, family, jobs, theatre, not the usual chit-chat stuff. And in no time at all! I LOVE THAT!
And oh man, is she gorgeous. Gush.
Seriously, I'm going to quit being this nerdy. It's just been a very long time since I had a crush. Arielle happened too fast to count as a crush. We'll call that a "summer romance," shall we? This feels like 8th grade or something. Eep!
This is why I am freaking thrilled by what I can feel going on between Killeen and I. I don't know how many times we both said, "It's so great talking to you," over the course of our chat. And when we were on the phone earlier, it was so easy to just talk to her. I'm usually HORRIBLE on the phone. I get all kinds of awkward, even with people I know very well. Killeen and I spent 20 minutes on the phone like it was nothing, though I don't think we've ever had a conversation that long, and certainly not just the two of us. We talked and e-chatted about school, family, jobs, theatre, not the usual chit-chat stuff. And in no time at all! I LOVE THAT!
And oh man, is she gorgeous. Gush.
Seriously, I'm going to quit being this nerdy. It's just been a very long time since I had a crush. Arielle happened too fast to count as a crush. We'll call that a "summer romance," shall we? This feels like 8th grade or something. Eep!