so an update... on myslef
So ... about me i kind of sacluded myself from everyone latley and it is mostly due to the major amount of school work and stress that has come with it . This week was a really harsh week. Im totally failing my history class .. so im going to withdraw form it ... it makes me sad becasue never in my life have i failed a class and i feel like such a quiter for withdrawing from the class but i think its for the best ... id rather have a W/U then an F ... so i guess that will lift some stress off my sholders... i miss all myfriends i cant wait to come to hayward and see everyone!!!!!!!!! But another reason i have really picked up the phone is becasue i have been so sad lately ... i think mostly becasue i have been studing non stop the last few weeks and i feel like i have acomplished nothing due to the evil history class... but then yesterday ivan was here and him and a few friends went skating down town (sac) and i tagged along .. and all that time i spent being frusterated and upset was all changed due to the humbel beings of a few homeless people. For someone living in possibly one of the worst living conditions are so humbel and talkative.. It was uplifting.. They were so amazed at the boys skating they sar and talked and asked questions with large smiles... One walked with his rolly backpack.. and as he walked by the spot the boys were skating he stoped and just watched for a few minuets and the he talked a little and a bunch of the boy's that werent skating were laughing and having a good time along with this man that lived on the street .. just seeing him laugh was what brightined my day ... IT an awsome feeling to see a homeless man smile and laugh and have a good time with a bunch of strangers .. i mean how often does that man have the chance to smile ... i live in a home and dont have to worrie about where im going to be sleeping night to night .and i guees what really got to me is .. it is so easy for us to get lost in our lives .. to be angery and upset be down and at times we take for granted lots of things and allow things like anger or downs to take over us. When really we should enjoy life .smile as much as possible, laugh , enjoy the ones around you, and have a good time ... positive attitude makes life great. and bring a smile to a persons face is probley one of the best feelings in the world ..especially if its from someone who isnt in the best situation in the world... i love you all and i miss you ... LIndsey it makes me sad that you deleted us all but what ever .... :/ i miss you .. you should have to hide your life from friends thats what we are here for ... night all love :)