Nervous moments...
Well at least they figured it out. I say they because at no point was I confused about things, this all made sense to me, so I was a little annoyed. But, it all worked out, so what do I care? But, I kind of do sort of. Ahhh doesn't matter and I'm not going to dwell on it. On the up side, there was good in all this, I got to wake up next to Emma and it was cool because neither of us wanted to climb out of the hammock. Then MaryAnna showed up. When this is over I need to go to the city of Bronze. I don't want a servant, and then there's the fact that Emma thinks that my Djinn companion is jealous. God, I hope not. I just don't need the stress. But I'm bothered by someone thinking they have to look after me. I can't deal with this, but I wonder...did I used to like having someone wait on me hand and foot? Suppose we all do to some degree.
So why does it bother me now? Why am I worrying about it now? Because I don't want to think about the obvious...I don't want to think about the fact that we may get our ass kicked by the Syndicate's forces. I'm worried that the cabal has bit off more than they can chew on this one. I don't know...I'm not worried about dying. I'm worried about surviving. Not that I'm suicidal or anything, but if someone gets killed in this, I'll never forgive myself for surviving. I know we've run scenerio's, I know we've checked probabilities...but those are variables and the one thing about time I know, nothing is set in stone. I'm sitting here watching everyone buzz about, doing all these effects, and I just don't have anything and besides with all the sleepers the Technauts have the advantage. Course...maybe there's a way around that too.
I'm worried about something happening to Emma, I don't want to lose her or Else or Rusty. Not that I want anything to permanently happen to Annorax or Ruth, but...eh okay. My journal, no one else is going to read it. But why is it that Annorax does something, and apparently often does something that puts the cabal in danger and Else coddles him. What the fuck?! I know all about the Hit Mark...hell thats the reason we're in this mess. He tries to steal the 10th sphere and right, he just needs to be loved. And I'm sorry letting him tell Ruth about the whole cabal unity thing was bullshit! I swear does he have to actually get one of us killed before Else stops protecting him. Its not that I don't like him, cause I do but I don't trust him. I'm sorry when the chips are down...I expect him to do the wrong thing.
I don't know. I'm worked up and might just be strung out from all the crap and hypocracy I've just had to deal with for the last day or so. If not for Emma I would be spazing...okay I'm still spazing. Emma though, she's the coolest. I love what she told Else when offered the chance to stay at the cabal while we handled this, and she straight up informed Else and me that she'd just made promised to be part of this cabal and she wasn't going to stay home while we went to risk our lives. She is badass. She's more than that...she rocks. If anything happens to her, I swear to god no technaut leaves there alive though. I'm not used to thinking like that. Have I never had a girlfriend? Other than Red? Suppose not. Well dammit I don't want to lose this one. I don't want to lose anyone. Even Annorax's punk ass...well not permanently.
So why does it bother me now? Why am I worrying about it now? Because I don't want to think about the obvious...I don't want to think about the fact that we may get our ass kicked by the Syndicate's forces. I'm worried that the cabal has bit off more than they can chew on this one. I don't know...I'm not worried about dying. I'm worried about surviving. Not that I'm suicidal or anything, but if someone gets killed in this, I'll never forgive myself for surviving. I know we've run scenerio's, I know we've checked probabilities...but those are variables and the one thing about time I know, nothing is set in stone. I'm sitting here watching everyone buzz about, doing all these effects, and I just don't have anything and besides with all the sleepers the Technauts have the advantage. Course...maybe there's a way around that too.
I'm worried about something happening to Emma, I don't want to lose her or Else or Rusty. Not that I want anything to permanently happen to Annorax or Ruth, but...eh okay. My journal, no one else is going to read it. But why is it that Annorax does something, and apparently often does something that puts the cabal in danger and Else coddles him. What the fuck?! I know all about the Hit Mark...hell thats the reason we're in this mess. He tries to steal the 10th sphere and right, he just needs to be loved. And I'm sorry letting him tell Ruth about the whole cabal unity thing was bullshit! I swear does he have to actually get one of us killed before Else stops protecting him. Its not that I don't like him, cause I do but I don't trust him. I'm sorry when the chips are down...I expect him to do the wrong thing.
I don't know. I'm worked up and might just be strung out from all the crap and hypocracy I've just had to deal with for the last day or so. If not for Emma I would be spazing...okay I'm still spazing. Emma though, she's the coolest. I love what she told Else when offered the chance to stay at the cabal while we handled this, and she straight up informed Else and me that she'd just made promised to be part of this cabal and she wasn't going to stay home while we went to risk our lives. She is badass. She's more than that...she rocks. If anything happens to her, I swear to god no technaut leaves there alive though. I'm not used to thinking like that. Have I never had a girlfriend? Other than Red? Suppose not. Well dammit I don't want to lose this one. I don't want to lose anyone. Even Annorax's punk ass...well not permanently.