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iiii give up.
i'm always that girl they vent to but dont actually care about. sweet.
met dans ex the other day. she really is a fat bitch. idk if she recognized me or not. i didnt ask because i wanted to live to see today.
been thinking alot about him lately. its wierd, i go through phases of missing him and hating him. right now i dont know which i'm at. probably closer to missing, but isnt hate kind of jsut another form of that? i mean if all it hink about is him, but its jsut negative.. i must miss him on some subconcous level, dont i?
i dont know.
prom is in a few days. i'm really not as excited as i should be. for a minute there i was, it hought i was interested in someone, found out they were going alone, thought there might be some potential there. buttt i'm sadly mistaken.
anyways tomorrow is mothers day. my last day of relaxation for a lonngg long time.
oh yeah, and it turns out the woman i took my lifeguarding calss from wasnt certified to teach waterfront lifegaurding. meaning my cert is still pending. meaning i wasnt technically allowed to guard lives last summer. greeaaat.. so that means i ahve to see if i can take some exams early so i can miss the last few days of school to get recertified in fucking massachusetts? yeeahh. i can see where my priorities lie lately.
anyways. kevin loves me. he keeps reminding me i'm not technically hired yet, but told me i'm definitely in nehantic with stacey and that hes going to have me and sara teach canoeing together. and that the first week i'll have to show the new staff photography and after that i'm home free for photo.
pretty sweet.
i think i'll go to bed soon.
i'm always that girl they vent to but dont actually care about. sweet.
met dans ex the other day. she really is a fat bitch. idk if she recognized me or not. i didnt ask because i wanted to live to see today.
been thinking alot about him lately. its wierd, i go through phases of missing him and hating him. right now i dont know which i'm at. probably closer to missing, but isnt hate kind of jsut another form of that? i mean if all it hink about is him, but its jsut negative.. i must miss him on some subconcous level, dont i?
i dont know.
prom is in a few days. i'm really not as excited as i should be. for a minute there i was, it hought i was interested in someone, found out they were going alone, thought there might be some potential there. buttt i'm sadly mistaken.
anyways tomorrow is mothers day. my last day of relaxation for a lonngg long time.
oh yeah, and it turns out the woman i took my lifeguarding calss from wasnt certified to teach waterfront lifegaurding. meaning my cert is still pending. meaning i wasnt technically allowed to guard lives last summer. greeaaat.. so that means i ahve to see if i can take some exams early so i can miss the last few days of school to get recertified in fucking massachusetts? yeeahh. i can see where my priorities lie lately.
anyways. kevin loves me. he keeps reminding me i'm not technically hired yet, but told me i'm definitely in nehantic with stacey and that hes going to have me and sara teach canoeing together. and that the first week i'll have to show the new staff photography and after that i'm home free for photo.
pretty sweet.
i think i'll go to bed soon.