dreams shrink diet
I have these crazy funky dreams lately:
being on a building which is being burnt, no way down, jump? some how I found a short cut to escape
shitting out big pile of popo with a worm on it while a woman was listening to me
running away from clapping and burning buildings with Jo where his sister was burning to death, it was an earthquake, end of the world dream
running in beautiful space with huge flat bug clinging to my body, shake it off, I wanted to shake them off
I started to see LS, the shrink T recommended before I went to Ch. She is fantastic. I am fortunate. I cried in front of her the first time the last time I saw her. She is digging out my grieve for my mother and for my baby sitter. The memory was from so long ago but they haunted me for years. She helped me to find out that I have been not forgiving to myself. It is amazing to realize that I have been totally forgiving to most of the other people yet not myself. I AM MY OWN ENEMY. She gave me a book about forgiving. I have been reading it and practicing. I wrote down a whole list of ex who hurt my feelings. I wrote down what I remember from the broke up. I brainstormed and revisit those wounds. I threw away the paper into the trash when I was done. That was right before I dreamed about pooping out the big pile of shit. Those are emotional shit. I felt so much better afterwards. I decided to have intensive shrink section to clean out that emotional garbage.
She helped me to realize that I have been carrying shame and guilt, which prevent me from becoming the person who I want to become.
She said I need a personal Mission plan.
The good thing about cooking on my own is that I can control my diet. I am frustrated by greasy restaurant food. I believe that diet affect one's emotion. I wish I have more then 24 hours a day. I need at least three hours a day to prepare my own yummy food. sign...
being on a building which is being burnt, no way down, jump? some how I found a short cut to escape
shitting out big pile of popo with a worm on it while a woman was listening to me
running away from clapping and burning buildings with Jo where his sister was burning to death, it was an earthquake, end of the world dream
running in beautiful space with huge flat bug clinging to my body, shake it off, I wanted to shake them off
I started to see LS, the shrink T recommended before I went to Ch. She is fantastic. I am fortunate. I cried in front of her the first time the last time I saw her. She is digging out my grieve for my mother and for my baby sitter. The memory was from so long ago but they haunted me for years. She helped me to find out that I have been not forgiving to myself. It is amazing to realize that I have been totally forgiving to most of the other people yet not myself. I AM MY OWN ENEMY. She gave me a book about forgiving. I have been reading it and practicing. I wrote down a whole list of ex who hurt my feelings. I wrote down what I remember from the broke up. I brainstormed and revisit those wounds. I threw away the paper into the trash when I was done. That was right before I dreamed about pooping out the big pile of shit. Those are emotional shit. I felt so much better afterwards. I decided to have intensive shrink section to clean out that emotional garbage.
She helped me to realize that I have been carrying shame and guilt, which prevent me from becoming the person who I want to become.
She said I need a personal Mission plan.
The good thing about cooking on my own is that I can control my diet. I am frustrated by greasy restaurant food. I believe that diet affect one's emotion. I wish I have more then 24 hours a day. I need at least three hours a day to prepare my own yummy food. sign...