Summertime.
Summertime. I love the sound & feel of that word. What a nice one I’ve been having. Starting with the strange week involving the extremely successful bake-off, Alex’s party.., the last of people coming home, and finally finishing the first year of culinary, it has been good. I’ve been waking up late everyday, doing my best to forget what 7am looks like, and having time to myself (that I actually enjoy) until around two. Then I’m pretty sure I’ve seen someone every single day of this summer. And my do I appreciate the vast and varied plethora of people in my life I’ve been picnicking, creating, playing, and endlessly chatting with. I think I’ve broken a record for most hours spent talking when I should be sleeping. I love the music that’s been filling this month including Sublime, Modest Mouse, Ben Lee, Regina Spektor, and most of all Laura Gibson, who should write the soundtrack to my life. Music does so much for me and I’m so greatful for it. This summer has also been full of baking and cooking and I’m loving it more and more. From Sam & Solanah’s wedding cake, to peanut-butter and mac&cheese sandwiches, it has all been fun and creative and the basis of so many good memories. I’ve realized recently how most of my friends really appreciate food, which is part of why I think I’ve gotten so into it. It’s really interesting to have my college friends and artschool friends all in the same place because while we’re all pretty much the same age and such, it’s really two different cultures and I’m always surprised when they collide. It also makes me wonder a lot about what would have happened if STC and VSAA friends would have partied together or even what it’d be like now. Everyone’s growing up and I’m very excited and very worried about it all.
People’s roles in my life are still shifting and I’m already mourning the loss of some, desperately trying to revive most of those, and thanking my stars that others have grown so effortlessly. There are a few friend situations I need to resolve, but most things are well and I’m in a better place with my family where we’re still there for each other, but it’s all becoming less stressfully reliant. While this all progresses, boy situations are maddeningly stagnant. I now regularly hang out with Trent, but I think we’d be the most awk couple ever, Angel still will not give up, though it’s def never going to happen, and Max and I continue to talk about shmubs and music and mythical creatures and movies and make up fake clubs, but it’s not moving toward anything except for maybe being better friends. I thought college would provide me with a chance to meet a lot of possible dates, but I feel like I moved to another artschool where everyone knows everyone and they’re all too close to actually be possibilities. So we’re back to needing to try harder to meet people I suppose.
That’s a nice thing about summer. It gives me time to put things in perspective and everything is going so swimmingly, it gives me a chance to improve. I’m making an effort to look the way I want, I’m actually studying the driver’s book, I’ve started looking for a job so I can move out this next year, I’m trying harder to have follow through in all the projects I start and never finish. I’m also looking at the things I’ve been ignoring because they’re complicated, and slowly untangling all those neglected aspects of my life. I feel small, painful, real change happening and I hope I can continue to motivate myself to put the effort toward forward movement. I’m so happy I have so much summer left with trips to Graysriver and Seattle planned, some old-friend traditions, some new-friend expeditions, and baking, cocktail, and birthday parties already planned. I’m also excited to go back to school and have classes with Larry where I’ll learn so much and get to be with Brooke and Paul and Peter and everyone, but I will miss the amount of people around now. With the present so clear, the future seems more manageable and I’m looking forward to whatever may come.
People’s roles in my life are still shifting and I’m already mourning the loss of some, desperately trying to revive most of those, and thanking my stars that others have grown so effortlessly. There are a few friend situations I need to resolve, but most things are well and I’m in a better place with my family where we’re still there for each other, but it’s all becoming less stressfully reliant. While this all progresses, boy situations are maddeningly stagnant. I now regularly hang out with Trent, but I think we’d be the most awk couple ever, Angel still will not give up, though it’s def never going to happen, and Max and I continue to talk about shmubs and music and mythical creatures and movies and make up fake clubs, but it’s not moving toward anything except for maybe being better friends. I thought college would provide me with a chance to meet a lot of possible dates, but I feel like I moved to another artschool where everyone knows everyone and they’re all too close to actually be possibilities. So we’re back to needing to try harder to meet people I suppose.
That’s a nice thing about summer. It gives me time to put things in perspective and everything is going so swimmingly, it gives me a chance to improve. I’m making an effort to look the way I want, I’m actually studying the driver’s book, I’ve started looking for a job so I can move out this next year, I’m trying harder to have follow through in all the projects I start and never finish. I’m also looking at the things I’ve been ignoring because they’re complicated, and slowly untangling all those neglected aspects of my life. I feel small, painful, real change happening and I hope I can continue to motivate myself to put the effort toward forward movement. I’m so happy I have so much summer left with trips to Graysriver and Seattle planned, some old-friend traditions, some new-friend expeditions, and baking, cocktail, and birthday parties already planned. I’m also excited to go back to school and have classes with Larry where I’ll learn so much and get to be with Brooke and Paul and Peter and everyone, but I will miss the amount of people around now. With the present so clear, the future seems more manageable and I’m looking forward to whatever may come.