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todays been a hard day! at least 10 times today i just felt like bursting in to tears all over nothing ! what is wrong with me?
i was cutting up shit for dinner and relised just how sharp the knife i was useing was and all i wanted to do was stick it in to my skin! i wasent depressed nothing was wrong i just wanted 2 hurt myself! i still want 2!! why wont i...? i got a skript filled today they gave me 60 tablets instead of 30 and when i took 30 it was a big deal and i had 2 be cared for overnight. 60 ...? might kill me...! am i strong enough for that tonight? why do i bother hanging on..? what have i got left...?
nothing!!! nothing!!!
everything i care about seems 2 have an experation date !
i was cutting up shit for dinner and relised just how sharp the knife i was useing was and all i wanted to do was stick it in to my skin! i wasent depressed nothing was wrong i just wanted 2 hurt myself! i still want 2!! why wont i...? i got a skript filled today they gave me 60 tablets instead of 30 and when i took 30 it was a big deal and i had 2 be cared for overnight. 60 ...? might kill me...! am i strong enough for that tonight? why do i bother hanging on..? what have i got left...?
nothing!!! nothing!!!
everything i care about seems 2 have an experation date !