What do you want to do with your life?
I WANNA ROCK!
oh my god. does the thought of being completely finished with school and organized learning and having to work a 9-5 job day in and day out in order to survive frighten anybody like it does me? someone please answer this question. because it makes me want to cry. oh my god, what will i do without school, without this structured means of acquiring knowledge about important things that i should know, but i may not know that i need to know. oh lord, am i even making sense anymore? okay, it's just hard to imagine this thing that has been part of the landscape of my life for so long now just being gone all of a sudden. maybe it's my "preference for sameness" talking now. shut up.
well see, school being gone is one thing, something i can deal with moreso, ya know, kind of like summer time, real nice and with more free time for interests and joys and personal learning activities. BUT...working a 9-5 job is something toootally different. ew ew ew. i guess i want to be a teacher, which is cool, but even the thought of doing that 5 days a week for maybe 8 hours a day is a little unsettling. 40 hours a week working the same job is just not for me. is that supposed to be the "real" world? no, i dont want to accept that. i want to be able to switch things up when i feel like it, travel when i feel like it, try new things when i feel like it, and without the obligation of working 40 hours a week doing the same job every day. but clearly there is no way to say, "i want to teach at your school, but ummm just some of the time. the other times, im gonna do whatever the hell i want." is it possible to do what you want and not stress yourself out with 40 hours a week? not to mention the fact that i will be moving out of this house in eastampton and most likely into philadelphia, which means that money will be necessary to live indoors and eat and have electricity and all that crap. ahhh, money sucks but apparently you need it to do the things you want to do.
so the reason why i've been thinking so much about this school/work thing lately is because the time has come to take the GRE's(aaahhh!) and seek letters of recommendation(aaahhh!) for entrance into rutger's 5 year masters prorgam in education, which only requires 1 additional year added to one's undergraduate studies. applications for the program are due by january and preparations start more like NOW and i JUST RECENTLY started seriously considering NOT doing the 5 year master's program in education here at rutgers. and this happening after years of believing that this masters prorgam was "THE PLAN" and the way that everything was going to play out. so why the change of heart? a 5 year masters degree in education still sounds fabulous, but prolonging my stay in new brunswick to include an additional year after finishing my bachelors degree here does not. not when comparing that to moving out into the city after graduation. and i would ideally do teach for america in the city for 2 years and still be able to recieve teacher certification. but i have to look at the long term pros and cons. but it's also important that i am open to new possibilities and dont let the "preference for sameness" dictate my decision just because i dont want to take risks or do anything outside of "THE PLAN". hell, maybe i dont want to teach at all! maybe i just want to do something with french and my french major. yea, life is frustrating to the max. who knows. let's just rock.
oh my god. does the thought of being completely finished with school and organized learning and having to work a 9-5 job day in and day out in order to survive frighten anybody like it does me? someone please answer this question. because it makes me want to cry. oh my god, what will i do without school, without this structured means of acquiring knowledge about important things that i should know, but i may not know that i need to know. oh lord, am i even making sense anymore? okay, it's just hard to imagine this thing that has been part of the landscape of my life for so long now just being gone all of a sudden. maybe it's my "preference for sameness" talking now. shut up.
well see, school being gone is one thing, something i can deal with moreso, ya know, kind of like summer time, real nice and with more free time for interests and joys and personal learning activities. BUT...working a 9-5 job is something toootally different. ew ew ew. i guess i want to be a teacher, which is cool, but even the thought of doing that 5 days a week for maybe 8 hours a day is a little unsettling. 40 hours a week working the same job is just not for me. is that supposed to be the "real" world? no, i dont want to accept that. i want to be able to switch things up when i feel like it, travel when i feel like it, try new things when i feel like it, and without the obligation of working 40 hours a week doing the same job every day. but clearly there is no way to say, "i want to teach at your school, but ummm just some of the time. the other times, im gonna do whatever the hell i want." is it possible to do what you want and not stress yourself out with 40 hours a week? not to mention the fact that i will be moving out of this house in eastampton and most likely into philadelphia, which means that money will be necessary to live indoors and eat and have electricity and all that crap. ahhh, money sucks but apparently you need it to do the things you want to do.
so the reason why i've been thinking so much about this school/work thing lately is because the time has come to take the GRE's(aaahhh!) and seek letters of recommendation(aaahhh!) for entrance into rutger's 5 year masters prorgam in education, which only requires 1 additional year added to one's undergraduate studies. applications for the program are due by january and preparations start more like NOW and i JUST RECENTLY started seriously considering NOT doing the 5 year master's program in education here at rutgers. and this happening after years of believing that this masters prorgam was "THE PLAN" and the way that everything was going to play out. so why the change of heart? a 5 year masters degree in education still sounds fabulous, but prolonging my stay in new brunswick to include an additional year after finishing my bachelors degree here does not. not when comparing that to moving out into the city after graduation. and i would ideally do teach for america in the city for 2 years and still be able to recieve teacher certification. but i have to look at the long term pros and cons. but it's also important that i am open to new possibilities and dont let the "preference for sameness" dictate my decision just because i dont want to take risks or do anything outside of "THE PLAN". hell, maybe i dont want to teach at all! maybe i just want to do something with french and my french major. yea, life is frustrating to the max. who knows. let's just rock.