Crying
Well, I know it's like.... the 20th time I've said this...
Kangin.
I fangirl a lot about Sungmin and Donghae, it's a given. But when it really comes down to it, I really care about Kangin. Yesterday, I broke when I heard his voice. When I saw his picture this morning, it was the last straw. I was gone.
Forever waiting for Kangin, until he returns, my heart will never be fully with super junior. Kangin has a third of my heart, always had, I just never expressed it verbally.
Donghae/Eunhyuk, I thank you for that wonderful song... Just, Kangin...
*sighs* why am I so dramatic. Once the new live perfs hit and Sungmin pops up, I'll be that batshit fangirl again. Yet, all along, Kangin has held my heart, I just thought I'd dedicate it to him before he leave... let him know that...
I sometimes pity myself for crying over a celebrity, because I used to bash those fans who have no lives. But now, I understand their point of view, they're not just a celebrity, they mean more than that. Kangin. I just don't even know how to express this anymore, and holding this is in is going to make me crack again.
I used to think that crying is my way of coping, crying it out will make me feel better, crying will solve everything. It's not true. The more tears I shed, the more attached I get, the harder it gets for me to pull away.
I kept crying and crying last night when I heard his voice. I didn't even want to cry, and I woke up my dad with my sobbing(who made some fucking comment about me being moody and emotional and shit, fuck off dad). I cant even begin to describe how I feel... so I'll make it simple.
Kangin. I love you. Two years isn't that long, I know I can wait it out, because you're worth waiting for. You're probably one of the few celebrities I'd wait for.
I don't even know when it happened, how it happened, but somehow you found a way into my heart without me acknowledging it. When that part broke, I broke, and here I am...
Kangin.
I fangirl a lot about Sungmin and Donghae, it's a given. But when it really comes down to it, I really care about Kangin. Yesterday, I broke when I heard his voice. When I saw his picture this morning, it was the last straw. I was gone.
Forever waiting for Kangin, until he returns, my heart will never be fully with super junior. Kangin has a third of my heart, always had, I just never expressed it verbally.
Donghae/Eunhyuk, I thank you for that wonderful song... Just, Kangin...
*sighs* why am I so dramatic. Once the new live perfs hit and Sungmin pops up, I'll be that batshit fangirl again. Yet, all along, Kangin has held my heart, I just thought I'd dedicate it to him before he leave... let him know that...
I sometimes pity myself for crying over a celebrity, because I used to bash those fans who have no lives. But now, I understand their point of view, they're not just a celebrity, they mean more than that. Kangin. I just don't even know how to express this anymore, and holding this is in is going to make me crack again.
I used to think that crying is my way of coping, crying it out will make me feel better, crying will solve everything. It's not true. The more tears I shed, the more attached I get, the harder it gets for me to pull away.
I kept crying and crying last night when I heard his voice. I didn't even want to cry, and I woke up my dad with my sobbing(who made some fucking comment about me being moody and emotional and shit, fuck off dad). I cant even begin to describe how I feel... so I'll make it simple.
Kangin. I love you. Two years isn't that long, I know I can wait it out, because you're worth waiting for. You're probably one of the few celebrities I'd wait for.
I don't even know when it happened, how it happened, but somehow you found a way into my heart without me acknowledging it. When that part broke, I broke, and here I am...