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if ever in my life i wanted to roll over and die.. now would be the best time... im just soo upset over all of this... i dont know how much more i an take of this... the one person in the whole world i thoguht i can trust.. i dont think i can trust ne more... and i dont think she gives a shit... but i guess thats how it goes... my mom is out of town.. which is good cuz i dont have her barking down my thorat every 10 seconds... im just so tried and fed up with this.. i really am.. like if i did die right this very second.. i wouldnt care at all.. and i dont think ne one eles would either.. and that doesnt bother me one bit... im going threw so much shit right now it isnt even funny... and i cant talk to ne one about it really ne more.. well i can but i just dont want to waste other ppls time with my problems... i feel like im just falling deeper and deeper into this black hole and there is no way out... i really dont think ne one can help me with this problem so dont even try to... i didnt even sleep last nite.. and if i did it was like for 30 min at the most and i would have these crazy dreams that didnt make ne sense at all... and i woke up at 6:00 am... then tried to back asleep... then 7:00... tried again... 8:00.. still no luck... then my mom called around 10... to check in on us cuz the house will explode with out her being here... ok well im gonna go.. i just cant stand it ne more...