couldn't help mistaking that you could care for anyone, anyone but yourself..
i'm just a little emotional right now .. ignore this whole thing
life is just so damn confusing. i'm only 16 years old, but yet i have no freaking clue what is going on ever. and just when i think i've figured it out, i'm so wrong. things always work the same way with me. you think i would figure out the warning signs by now, but i fall for the same shit every freaking time. it's the most frusterating thing. and this time it didn't even go far, i just was really upset by it. maybe because i knew nothing was going to happen from the beginning. and i pretended that maybe, just maybe i had a chance. but why should i have even thought that? i mean it was only completely obvious. you ever feel like you got your hopes up for nothing? and it happens all the time. it's like "hey, let's let kela crush on this guy. make her think for maybe a second that she has a chance. then just when she's hit her high, lets pull the chair out from under her and let her fall on her ass." maybe i just over think things and this isn't the case at all. but i would like some actual like reassurance on everything. i have so many mixed and bottled up emotions that i don't know what to do right now. there's so much that i want to say and i just can't. it's bothering me because i've burst into tears 3 times tonight already over things that i don't even know of. whatever i'm an emotional mess right now.. so just ignored this whole thing..
life is just so damn confusing. i'm only 16 years old, but yet i have no freaking clue what is going on ever. and just when i think i've figured it out, i'm so wrong. things always work the same way with me. you think i would figure out the warning signs by now, but i fall for the same shit every freaking time. it's the most frusterating thing. and this time it didn't even go far, i just was really upset by it. maybe because i knew nothing was going to happen from the beginning. and i pretended that maybe, just maybe i had a chance. but why should i have even thought that? i mean it was only completely obvious. you ever feel like you got your hopes up for nothing? and it happens all the time. it's like "hey, let's let kela crush on this guy. make her think for maybe a second that she has a chance. then just when she's hit her high, lets pull the chair out from under her and let her fall on her ass." maybe i just over think things and this isn't the case at all. but i would like some actual like reassurance on everything. i have so many mixed and bottled up emotions that i don't know what to do right now. there's so much that i want to say and i just can't. it's bothering me because i've burst into tears 3 times tonight already over things that i don't even know of. whatever i'm an emotional mess right now.. so just ignored this whole thing..