fuck me
...I miss him one day, the next day I don't care. why?
the days I miss him, it kills me. I'm tired of it. when am I gonna find someone else who will miss me back? who will love me back and who can't live without me? I can't do another one sided relationship ever again.
I'm so angry with myself...I don't want to cry anymore. I said goodbye so that I wouldn't have to cry eventually..its been 2 and a half months...I'm still crying from time to time and its not ok at all. I don't see this feeling completely going away anytime soon either. its making me sick, and I need to keep my appetite consistent because my iron levels are low and I'm tired of feeling tired all the time just because I lost my appetite over some asshole.
This is beginning to feel worse than it did when we first broke up and I was a serious mess back then that I don't even know how I made it out alive.
it kinda makes me sick how relationships can go from making you and your life so much better to completely destroying you and disrupting your life and your health if it ends. why does it happen that way? stupid questions I'll never have answered of course. but maybe its cuz its nearly impossible to find true love so when you think you found it, the last thing anyone wants or even needs, is to have it end.
the days I miss him, it kills me. I'm tired of it. when am I gonna find someone else who will miss me back? who will love me back and who can't live without me? I can't do another one sided relationship ever again.
I'm so angry with myself...I don't want to cry anymore. I said goodbye so that I wouldn't have to cry eventually..its been 2 and a half months...I'm still crying from time to time and its not ok at all. I don't see this feeling completely going away anytime soon either. its making me sick, and I need to keep my appetite consistent because my iron levels are low and I'm tired of feeling tired all the time just because I lost my appetite over some asshole.
This is beginning to feel worse than it did when we first broke up and I was a serious mess back then that I don't even know how I made it out alive.
it kinda makes me sick how relationships can go from making you and your life so much better to completely destroying you and disrupting your life and your health if it ends. why does it happen that way? stupid questions I'll never have answered of course. but maybe its cuz its nearly impossible to find true love so when you think you found it, the last thing anyone wants or even needs, is to have it end.