ha! hmm...
something tells me I need to leave tucson asap!
I just have this god awful feeling that larry is gonna contact me. I don't know when he will, or why or how I have this feeling, but I need to be far far away from him when that happens. haha...I feel really paranoid with this strange feeling. So far he's respected my wishes for him to not contact me ever again, but he's the most disrespectful male I have ever known, I doubt he's gonna stay away permanently just because I asked him to, that would actually require having respect.
beyond that, my mother has not stopped picking fights with me. I'll be minding my own business and she starts threatening me if I don't do what she wants, right away. I have to drop everything for her and she's acting like its all my fault that I don't have a car right now. I'm really worn out from it and I almost have a car, I just need her patience, but its hard when she's constantly jumping down my throat every 5 seconds! so as soon as I get a car, I'm making arrangements to leave. I can't take it anymore. I came to Tucson to straighten my head out and relax. L.A wore me out emotionally and I just need to relax my emotions right now and I can't even accomplish that cuz of my mother! She knows I had one of the roughest years of my life, but she just sits there screaming at me and then wonders why I scream back at her, begging her to cut it out. I don't like arguing, if someone has a problem, talk to me and you will get results. my mother doesn't get that concept. seriously if I had the money I would stay at a hotel or rent out a vacation home so I can stay longer, but I can't do this. That woman doesn't respect my independence and I've felt like a child since I got back.
grrr...I've sent out my resume to a million places, I hope at least 2 respond to me. I hate job hunting and I want a job that I'm gonna stay at for a while, hopefully a couple years, at least.
I just have this god awful feeling that larry is gonna contact me. I don't know when he will, or why or how I have this feeling, but I need to be far far away from him when that happens. haha...I feel really paranoid with this strange feeling. So far he's respected my wishes for him to not contact me ever again, but he's the most disrespectful male I have ever known, I doubt he's gonna stay away permanently just because I asked him to, that would actually require having respect.
beyond that, my mother has not stopped picking fights with me. I'll be minding my own business and she starts threatening me if I don't do what she wants, right away. I have to drop everything for her and she's acting like its all my fault that I don't have a car right now. I'm really worn out from it and I almost have a car, I just need her patience, but its hard when she's constantly jumping down my throat every 5 seconds! so as soon as I get a car, I'm making arrangements to leave. I can't take it anymore. I came to Tucson to straighten my head out and relax. L.A wore me out emotionally and I just need to relax my emotions right now and I can't even accomplish that cuz of my mother! She knows I had one of the roughest years of my life, but she just sits there screaming at me and then wonders why I scream back at her, begging her to cut it out. I don't like arguing, if someone has a problem, talk to me and you will get results. my mother doesn't get that concept. seriously if I had the money I would stay at a hotel or rent out a vacation home so I can stay longer, but I can't do this. That woman doesn't respect my independence and I've felt like a child since I got back.
grrr...I've sent out my resume to a million places, I hope at least 2 respond to me. I hate job hunting and I want a job that I'm gonna stay at for a while, hopefully a couple years, at least.